life is complicated

2008-12-09T21:55:00.000-08:00

ok hello.

my brother reads my blog. how nice.

after that post on him

and thats not all my 2 sisters read it too.

thanks man,

how nice to see my siblings reading my blog -.-

anyway.

been really busy with trainings and stuff this few days.

and cause of new shits happening.

always have to end up in a bad mood trying to fix this or help with wadever,

but wadever.

shall not thik about it.

hahah

im gonna play audition.

=))

2008-12-03T01:01:00.000-08:00

hmm..
hello?

super tired. again.
daphne elouis shikin ah ma yi lin cecilia just left my house.
wth sia.
i think my house turning into a gambling den.
the seniors- me daph elouis cecilia were playing mah jong
juniors- shikin yi lin ah ma playing tai di.
lols.
but daph and ah ma changed in the end.
played for about 2 hours or so??

then they left
most of them are scared of dogs.
and
my dog fudge has been barking a lot for the past few days.
kept running around in circles. lol.
and barking at them.
elouis shikin and ah ma were like so damn scared lah.
wth.
anyway.
we were super noisy in the room sia.
some of us singing.
some shouting and playing.
wa lau.
i think my sister couldn't stand it.
she came in. glared at us and slammed the door.
lol.s.
i think she scared them
=)
so here i am blogging.
super good sia.
i have been updating
anyway.
was supposed to go jie's house but changed my mind in the end.
quite tired.

we have 2 friendly matches on friday.
with hua yi and unity.
but i think theres gonna be another one.
wth.
training is tough.
today,.,
haix.
shall not say.
so im either going to study soon or ...........
not sure yet,

bye!
say hello to fudge!!
=))

2008-12-02T07:12:00.000-08:00

heys..
hmm. im keeping up with the good work=)
im still blogging.
guess wad. my sis just sent me photos which she forced me to take.
in a peranekan or something like that
aiya just some outfit
which belongs to my ah ma.
and bloody hell. she keep saying i look like those nonya or baba.
wth.
!!!!!
hmm should i post those pictures or not?
ah wth.
shes alr forcing me to post it on facebook.
what difference will it make if i post it here.
....
get ready to rofl

yupps. i know.
dumb.
and my face is like super chubby lah
lols.
anyway.i just showed it to my second sister and she also
bloody hell go say i look like nonya also.
not that its bad lah
cause my family blood got peranekan.
but im like the only one among my siblings who looks like one.
unfair.
=(
and also the only one with curly hair.
thanks to my mum who only gave it to me.
!!!!

lols.
super random post.

anyway.
had training today.
tired!
then went for dinner with shikin elouis and jowilly.
at CS
chatted A LOT there.
and finally was able to watch my show(the little nonya -.-)
its quite nice noe!
anyway.
we left cause shikin saw her brother and omfg!
her reaction damn big sia.
made all of us like kan chiong and our heads knocked each other also lah.,
craZy girl.

anyway. downloading audition
fucking hell taking damn long lah.
wa lau.
started to play cause at first!
elouis keep asking me play i don wan.
then shikin they all kena psycho by elouis to play.
then like they play and like make it damn fun like that
and stupid me had a sudden urge to play it.
see!
end up having to wait 3 hrs for the thing to download
if the bloody thing cannot run ah
WTF!
i am gonna be so pissed off.

hmm
for now while waiting
i shall go play maple.
=))
lame. oh ya. i just started runescape also.
lols.
wth sia. start so many things.
sian must sleep early today
cause poor me has training tmr!
at 8.30
after that maybe rushing back home to bathe then off to my sister's house!
to stay over
=))
yay!
i think im gonna help her buy some groceries
cause i feel like i need to.
lols.
ok stupid?
hmm i better go tag wei chen's blog soon
bye!

2008-12-01T07:17:00.000-08:00

heys..
i know ive nt been blogging for a super long while.
but still.
just felt the urge to pelt down my feelings today.

ive rotted the whole day away.
woke up early. went for piano.
came back.
played com.
ate lunch.
my bro forced me out of com.
so freaking pissed.
then,
read marley and me.
super nice book.
definately going to catch the movie.
i cried like omfg.
while reading that book.
but its also funny
=))

read a bit of geography and ate dinner.
the rest was even more boring
gosh.

super moody now
cause my ass of a brother came home from his freaking chalet and headed straight to the com which im using.
and forced me to go out.
usually. i had no choice but to let him,
but today.
i just felt bottled up anger exploding.
my mum came and was like shouting.
then started scolding me and i was like trying to get the fucking point clear that i should not let him get his way anymore
but!
to no avail.
he went to bathe and came out humming happily and in a very irritating way i would just go and punch his balls out.
all that while my mum was still nagging at me.
OMFG!
i swear.
i was fucking pissed.
then my mum said we both only has 1 hr to play each.
like wtf?
i am only using this com to play maple cause its the only one installed.
later i shall use the lap top
and i bet
my brother thinks he won.
he doesn listen to me.
or treat me as a sister.
he uses me.
and as much as i love him. he doesn seem to bother.
i seem like a fool crying over this.
and also as though im talking about my boyfriend or something//
well. my close frens noe about how my brother treats me.
they always tell me why bother?
but i just feel this obligation.
i guess its because he is my brother.
i just wished he doesn think he owns me and that all must obey him.

maybe im just jealous that he is someone who people will like more cause he is original or funny
and i am just always following rules.
not doing anything fun.
boring,
and just purposely trying to go wild hoping that others will think im not boring or just using that cover to hide my feelings.
dumb. i know.

almost everyone or maybe my relatives prefer him to me.
i can sense it.
im not jealous about that.
its just that he thinks everyone is against him.
that whenever we quarrel he gets scolded and nobody scolds me.
but really. he usually is the one who starts the fight but always think im in the wrong.
he always thinks that i let him down.
i didn do this or that for him.
he will jsut go i won do it cause u last time also never.
but there isn that last time.
i don noe how he remembers it or think about it but im sure ive repaid him after everything.

my family life's a mess.
i thought i was back to normal.
after letting out stuff today. makes me have this nostalgic feeling.
my mood has completely changed.
i have training tmr.
and i don think im going to be cheerful.
or maybe i will after a night's sleep.
lets hope so.

argh wad a stupid post.
after so long of neglecting my blog .
all i could come up is this??!??
sorry.

for don noe wad.
but.
yeah. im clueless.

im supposed to study for my re tests.
but i still cant get the mood.
there is something super wromg with me.
god!

im so crazy.
i fought with my bro over the com to play maple.
-.-
but here i am blogging when i could have just used the laptop without stirring a fight between us.
i guess i got fired up by the way he comanded or something.

anyway.
went fishing yesterday with jie and her frens.
quite fun.
caught a few small fishes and a baby sting ray.
but we let all of them back
=)
i guess yesterdays eventt kinda linked or built up the pent up feelings.
why?
i wont say cause i cant describe it.
i jus felt.
wadever.

super long post huh.
on the verge of tears while writing some parts.
i wish there is something or someone who could spice up my life.
and not anything more to bring it down further.
haha.

quite sleepy now cause of all those late nights and early rising.
but im going to stay up and play the computer and continue this stupid battle with my brother.

stupid right . i know.
there aer parts of the story which may not be suitable for posting up
i feel. but still..
i think some of my friends would noe.
i suddenly feel like talking to some of them.
just thought of elouis.
haha.
have been on the phone with her several nights investigating.
lols.
shall not elaborate.
my heads thumping. my vision blurring.
realised i was typing in the dark.
wtf.

is there really unconditional love?
i may have been blessed with it all this while but just not able to understand it yet.
i also want to give that love out but i just don't have the fortune maybe?
so... currently my life isn one that people will envy.
maybe tmr i will be more cheerful and look forward to stuff.
today should be just rubbish
right?

2008-10-12T07:59:00.000-07:00

heys..
been at home for the past few days.
always supposed to go out.
but in the end.
i've been at home watching videos.
sleeping only in the wee hours of the morning.
waking up in the afternoon.
then going back to watching videos.
pathetic huh.
but what i wanna do leh.

exams are alr over but yet still has nothing to do.
as in i do not noe wad to do
haha.
wednesday will be dooms day.
argh..
i just do not noe what will happen.

ahh wadever.
=)

2008-10-11T14:27:00.001-07:00

exams are finally over.

i got a shock
wen i saw yr window.
haha..
the contents.
i shall not say.
cause,,,
i don noe either.
haha..

its all the same.
so easy.
but not for me

2008-10-06T01:57:00.001-07:00

oh gosh..
im so stressed out.
im seriously studying like siao ok.
im trying =))
if i don get promoted.
i die.
literally.
shit lahhhh..

at my sister's house now..
trying to study/.
why is a maths so hard?

argh.
well anyway.
gotta get back to my lovely books!
-.-

buh bye!

2008-10-03T05:20:00.000-07:00

heysss......

E-O-Ys are finally here.
sortt of excited about the activities after but also don really want it to end.
yeah... contradicting. i noe.
training is gonna start and i think it is going to be in the stadium =((
that sucks.
i hate running.
my stamina is sure to drop like hell after such a long break and i have not touched a basketball for like don noe how long lah..
die alr lah.
mr wong is gonna grill us until we become like super black...

yayyy.... i also seriously want it to end soon with good results of course =))
i have like so many things i wanna do.
hmm. the thailand trip with the basketballers is
definately on the top of the list!!
me and daphne is seriously super excited about it.
omg.. the shopping there.
im bound to bring like super lots of money and spend it all there lahs.
=))
oh yar.. i also wanna bake and sell it.
mayba can use it for extra shopping money =)
you can never shop too much u noe .
haha
this statement may change when i come back from thailand.
ooohhh. order stuff like eclairs and scones.
hmm.. scones are highly recommended.
=))
hurry order now !!

photos will be posted soon!
probably after my exams -))

at my sister's house now.
in bukit timah -.-
super far lah.
i stood from tampines all the way to clementi mrt.
so bloody crowded.
staying over today.
=))

bye...!!

2008-09-28T09:32:00.000-07:00

hello...

super stressed up for exams.
=((
damn tired lah.
don even have the foundation or motivation.
argh..
can die ah!!!

made eclairs for family.
quite sweet.
i didn even eat 1 of it =((
so i won noe how it tastes like.
im weird.
i make like so many stuff and don eat any of it.
lols.

i noe.i didn blog for like AGES.
but here i am again =))
watching gossip girl season 2.
taking a break from everything.
oh yar,
daph's mum brought me and her out.\
went to paya lebar there i think.
both of us went to do henna on our legs =))
super cool.
her mum asked us to anyway.
shall post up pictures next time.
now blogging for the need to blog only.

everytime i see you online.
i wonder
what have you been up to?
how have you been after wad you said.
hoping to get a clue of wad you are doing.
wad u r feeling.
but.
to no avail.
am i afraid ?
its also because of you i acted the way i acted.
so....
wads the outcome?
can it be changed?

2008-09-14T07:55:00.000-07:00

wth...

im officially exhausted like hell.
seriously.
damn tired man.
went rollerblading today.
i was like sleeping and blading lah.
ok not literally.
=))

went home.
bathed
changed
then went out again.
went on the singapore flyer =))
it was actually quite nice
went to sloane court for dinner after that.
for my mum's birthday.
like omg the food was really delish~~!!!!
seriously.
i had sirloin steak.
my sis had mixed grill and my other sis had oxtail stew.
which is like super super super delicious.
like OMG.
its super damn nice.
i would love the person who brings me there to eat oxtail man.
woahhh..
had brownie with ice cream for dinner.
it was nice =))
i cant take it anymore.
i have to sleep!!
haha

bye

2008-09-13T20:48:00.000-07:00

woahh....
im like super tired lah.
my family friends from thailand came here for holiday and im like damn tired lah.
wen they arrived on friday we went to eat at night at newton cirus.
after that went to chill at jie's house.
went bak quite late.
yesterday went to eat nasi padang then daddy dropped us at orhard.
walked the WHOLE day.
bought some stuffs.
=))

sat at starbucks then cabbed to chinatown to buy some perfumes and stuff.
had frog leg porridege for dinner.
then!!
went to sing ktv.
don noe wher lah.
i think smith street.
but quite fun.
wth.
drank a lot of beer last night.
that stupid shane lah. keep refilling mine. lols.
lucky not drunk man.

but super sleepy.
went home like super late i think 3 or 4 am.
not sure.
today i woke up without a headache(luckily)
and now i gotta go out rollerblading and cable sking with them later.
hhaha/.
bye =))

2008-09-06T15:35:00.000-07:00

oh no...
i think im back to my old ways again
lols.
its 6 35 am and i haven slept at all.
watching show.
gosh..
this is bad
i was playing mah jong yesterday until 4.
wa lau.
seriously can die man.
school starting soon some more.
how!!

you noe wad.
u seriously make me confused.
danm lah

2008-08-31T06:23:00.000-07:00

heys!!

im having lots of fun these few days =))

very happy.
haaha

today team came to my house only lena and rebecca didn come =(

although i did MOST of the work but they helped too

lols.

and i think its a success.

the tiramisu was also a success.

today they tried it and it was ok =))

not bad for my first time u noe.

haha

anyway.

we had turkey for dinner

My mum made it

it was super DELICIOUS!

like woah,

we finished it like super fast lah.

haha

like having early christmas lah

i was super bastard today

like damn FUCK LAH.

they were saying i 2 middle finger also not enough

lols.

i keep suaning other people

actually

keep suaning mei geok.

haha

yann ting also

but not as bad as me

don noe why leh

but she today damn NO LINK

she tok we don understand

we all show her the no link sign

lols.

IT WAS DAMN FUNNY.

she really damn slow.

we move on to the next subject then she reply to the subject before.

lols.

im serious.,

on msn even worse sia,

haha

anyway.

tis is te picture of our cake for mr wong mr tan and mr lee.

coffee cake =))

nice right =))

i deco wan leh.

haha

theyalso got help lah

tomoro. got training =((

but after that then we celebrate

haha.

bye bye

i go chat with them alr =))

2008-08-30T04:10:00.000-07:00

HELLO!!

just made tiramisu.

gosh. i wonder how it will end up/

haha

met qiu ru, qiu fang, pat, yann ting, mei geok at east point today =))

we went to buy ingredients for our cake and tiramisu.

my mum fetched us home.

and the whole fiasco started.

it was fun =))

i hope its a success

lol.

anyway!!

hot stuff!!

i have just finished watching a movie called.

angus, thongs and perfect snogging.

the title sounds wrong i noe but its a really nice movie.

go watch it!!

gosh.

im in love with the songs from there.

esp.....

ULTRAVIOLET!!!!!
its seriously damn nice.

like really really nice.

oh my.

im going mad over it!!

its releasing on 18th december.

damn long.

gosh.

trust me the guy
is HOT!
LLOLS.

GOOD BYE =))

2008-08-29T08:46:00.001-07:00

oh no..
i just remembered something
and im feeling super regretfull. but. also super not regretfull
as in.
i will have fun for both things lah.
but now it was important to build the current one up first.
i have to get back to my past now the the present is done =))
and i have to make the past present again =))
im really sorry.
really really sorry.
i will meet up with u guys again.
=))

ok. i noe its weird. total contrast to the post before.
and in the same day. and hour.
lols.
should have waited for 12
haha.
ok
i noe u guys r feeling cold.
but bye. =))
i don't care about u haha
appreciate me..

2008-08-29T07:23:00.000-07:00

HELLO!! =))

im finally able to use the computer after the grueling series of common tests!!

like WTF!
its fucking hard lah
i think im going to fail.
PLUS!
i failed all my subjects since the start of the year but it was because i was damn lazy.
but this time!
i really did study!
wth. i regret not studying man.
haha.
too bad for me.
i think i won't be able to catch up with the whole year's syllabus.

ANYWAY!!!!!!!

today i had cross country but i slacked a little =))
ok.. actually a lot.
i didn even like jog the whole. thing.
wad i remembered was .
i WAS running.
my stomach hurt. and the others were in front so i saw lena who happens to be tired too.
and so,,,,,

we walked. -.-
and jogged.
but walking wins the running for today man.
damn it lah.
but congrats yann ting. u got 1st =))
yay.
a basketballer could actually get first =))

well.
the happiest part about today isn the cross country(which was something i seriously hated)- because! the fucking ground was fucking muddy and wet and totally disgusting. i don usually freak about stuff like this but the worst thing is!!
my shoes has a giant hole in each shoes!!
and on the fucking sole!
bloody hell.
everything i walk on goes INTO my shoes.
every fucking step i take, mud+water+dirt+everything else goes in.
like ewww lah.
u still didn expect me to run in that kind of condition right....

so so so...
as i was saying.
after the cross country, mr wong treated us(basketballers b girls '08 ) to a meal at burger king.
and we deided to go k box as mr tan was going there with his class and asked us to go.
but we decided to get our own room and enjoy ourselves.
after much conflicts and don noe wad happen also.
we finally got together and did all these things today.
im not saying that we won't last time lah.
but its. don noe how to explain.
we got closer today =))
thanks to some songs haha.
seriously i think anyone like ANYONE would die if they came in
we were like jumping on the couch for those fast speed songs lah.
mr tan sang with us at the beginning. =))
he is actually not bad though.
i was singing with him but his voice like overpowered me. it was super. super loud.
don noe why also.
but after that. wen mr tan left and we were alone.
my voice over powered theirs with or without the mike. lols.
which means.
i also have a loud voice ok.
omg.
the way we were sreaming and singing together.
it was fun.
i won forget today =))
i practically went high.
all of us did.
and.. everyone sang except for PATRICIA!
i wonder how she escaped all of us. and how SHE made all of us sing.
haha.
lucky the room was soundproof or the entire E!hub could hear us screaming.
i noe im like ranting non-stop about it. but its seriously damn fun lah.
we had fun.
there were no contraditions,
there were no gossipping or wadever.
we accepted each other for who we r.
and now.
we are strong.
as a team.
on court.physically+skillfully
and off court.mentally

yayness. haha. don noe why i used that.
was thinking hannah montana?

oh anyway
bad thing about today is that we werent really complete.
cecelia and andrea didn come.
they went back to their primary schools.
hammy too =(
but!
they are definately inluded in the bond we had. even if they werent there.
=))

so...

will be busy tmr and sunday
=))
we will be baking a cake for mr wong on sunday at my house=))
that means.
mess. fun. delicious stuff
haha
all of us r excited for it
LOLs

we will be buying ingredients tmr.
and maybe i may decide to make tiramisu for them tmr.
so they can eat it on sunday while baking the "cake"
which im sure will be a "success"
=))

this is a very long post. and it is ending abruptly here =))
bye and goodnight! im off comparing recipes
LOls.
p.s. sorry for the lengthy posts without much spacing.

the fun we had =))

but not forgetting........

them too =))

2008-08-22T03:17:00.001-07:00

pictures =))

it hurt like hell ok.

=((

the wound looks worse in real life

seriously.

haha.

okok..

STUDY!

BYE =))

2008-08-22T03:11:00.000-07:00

=((..

i wasted 4 hours of my life today. haha
hmm..

original plan,,
go home. make juice.
ask maid to make me lunch.
go in room.
eat.
study l.ike siao.
but
!!

it all changed =(
mdm sharifah ask me to help her deco her booth for some fair tomor.
wth
and i m not even going to it.
siann sia..

yesterday was weird.
kinda got moody cause of some sstuffs.

i am so damn stressed.
im so scared i cant get anything in my head.
bloody hell.
there were lots of mixed emotions yesterday though.
i think im ok now.

common test is next week.
i have to study!!
i shall go off now =))

2008-08-10T05:41:00.000-07:00

oh no...
im getting lazy.
my blogs dying so here.
my attempt to keep it alive =))

this few weeks.
has been nothing but confusion.

everytime i think there's something. i always end up getting disappointed.
i have to stop anticipating.
and just drown myself in my shows and studies.

common test is coming.
mdm sharifah is stressing me to study and get distinction for her subs.
but .
i have no faith in myself.

piano exam on tuesday.
i think i am gonna be so scared that i mess everything up.
which is a high possibility.
very high actually.

damn it.
i am such a failure.
sometimes i wonder if i deserve to be here.
to be my parent's child.
it seems, my siblings are so much better.
i just mess up.
even wen i don intend to.
i just lose my temper although my temper is considered the best among them.
maybe im just not wise.

im on a rollercoaster ride.
small gestures makes me falter.
as much as i want it to stop,
it never does.

heres your post.
sorry for making it so................

2008-08-02T15:33:00.001-07:00

its 6.33 am in the morning..
and i have not slept.
...

TIRED!!

2008-07-23T06:43:00.001-07:00

GOSHH.
i feel super tired this few days.
but tmr!
i must be super high
to......................

SUPPORT MY JUNIORS!!
yay!!
both c girls and c boys are in the finals!
and both are up against anglican high.

i think i am gonna have a heart attack tmr,

firstly, i am will be like cheering for them like MAD! and hoping they will win
and
secondly, i bet the referees are gonna be so FUCKING BIASED!
seriously, i confirm super super angry tmr.
its like so fucking unfair lah
ngee ann lost to anglican high PURELY!
because of the referees biasness.
wtf lor.
super pek chek sia that day..

well,
tmr, we aRE gonna celebrate RACIAL HARMONY DAY!
and guess wad.
rvzana is gonna lend me a PUNJABI!
cool!
goshh
and shes coming to my house in the morning =))
yay..
thanks ruzana
haha
oh yeah , i will be leaving at like 1 tmr
yipee!
can skip class again
=))
but that isn good
dammit.
im gonna skip a maths again.
bloody hell.
like the past few weeks my teaher never come and the next few weeks i keep leaving class early. therefore, not being able to go for a maths.

die liao lah,.
must study extra extra hard
=))

but now im gonna study social studies cause of my test tmr.
die alr lah.
like seriously
i damn scared for tmr's test.

to elouis..

heys cheer up girl =))
and don worry about pissing me off. cause,,,,
being with daphne kan has made me increase my patience level. haha jk.
but really
u need someone just talk to me k.
even if u r an S character, doesn mean u only have to listen to others.
im always here for you k
my friend=)))
everyone feels that way sometimes.
i have also felt that way before.
not once even.
but,..
i still moved on and i am glad as i am enjoying the life basketball has given me.
i made friends like u and daphne and i really cherish that =))
and although we have lots of differences in the team, i feel that its now better and that i feel happy to be playing and fighting with u all
soo..
elouis, just take a break and relax yeah=))
me and daphne won mind yr mood swings don worry.
and..
just a special condition for u now,
i will allow u and daphne to suan me more!
since both of u enjoy it OK!

so good right
sacrifie.
haha.
but anyway.
take care ah.
only u will scream with me while supporting them
=))

kenji jones. u ah, better stop irritating me.
haha jk.
wa lau u in aussie of course i cant sms u often lah.
ass =))
anyway. i am saying wad u want me to say now k.
happy.!
bloody hell =))

i wanted to express wad i feel now but.
as i typed, i realised.
something i do not know how to express.
but its in me and i want to say it out but just dont know how to..

i don't know wad am i doing.
i don feel the meaning.
i don like this feeling
i don want this feeling.
i hope for a better change
i hope something good just happens.
i hope i can enjoy life.

TRUTH OR DARE.!!

2008-07-18T07:54:00.001-07:00

didn blog for a few days alr..

last saturday i was like fucking irritated.

bloody hell.

aiya

no mood talk about it.

but after that..

went for a maths.

played ball with jia da.

then met juniors.

went TM with them

=)
ate. then went open pLaza play TRUTH OR DARE!
the climax of this post
haha.

anyway...
we did loads of things
hmm..
videos are with elouis so i may shall get it fom her and post them up
=))

remember that saturday wen i went to school for lit fest,
we played truth or dare in SCHOOL!
and we had to do damn disgusting stuff lah
well some of my friends had to lift up their shirts until their bras.
and we had to kiss each other.
i was like so innocent lah
it wasn even my dare but i had to kiss faisya and lubna
not just kiss.,
i had to make out with lubna lah.
wth.
haha.
julia and faisya had to kiss too
OH YAH
i just remebered,
i had to stand on the CANTEEN table.
and best of all.
SING AND DANCE the song i like big butts.
like wtf!
seriously. mus smack the butt and sing it lah
bloody hell.
and the canteen was full of people and the ncc and npcc people were all there too.
gosh. thinking about it now makes me realise that i am so daring.
went bubble tea. met juniors. played truth or dare with them.
well playing with them isn that bad lah.
since they not as daring,
=((

haha
well we did loads of funny things. but i had to kiss jowilly's neck. and she just had training.
wth.
yucks!!!
lol.

well last saturday, after a maths i went bubble tea with lubna li lian and undram.
we played truth or dare again but this time!
i was so embarressed lah.
i had to go to the road, flagged a cab
talk to the uncle and guess wad lubna asked me to do.
sarah: uncle ah. taxi can go JOHOR not ah?
fuck sia.
the uncle still reply me and stuff sia. must be because i act until so innocent,
=))
uncle: er.. don have leh. only can go causeway.
sarah: oh.. than nevermind lor..thank you ah.
closed the door. walked like super fast to the shop and sat down.
and prctically screamed at them
=))

wtf lor.
SO PAI SEH LAH.
thats not all man...................
there was this super nerdy looking guy holding lots of plastic bag.
lubna dared meto go over and ask him if he neede help.
this isn that bad but u noe wad that guy answered me!!\

sarah:er.. you need any help?
nerdy boy: why?

wtf!
why?
wad kind of answer is that.

sarah: aiya. wth. forget it.

walks off and sits down.

=))

went back school played ball in the indoor court
with jia da.
when i went down, my juniors were about to go for lunch and elouis was there.
so since sarah had nothing to do,
she went TM with them
=))
ate at long johns.

felt SUPER cold but lucky jowilly kept me warm haha
went open plaza. found a place.sat down.
and started the game
=))
had to kiss elouis.
ermm.and i cant remeber.
but had to act out stuff.
wa lau
damn pai seh.
this group of tpjc people kept staring at us.
like wtf.,
mind your own business lah
was super pai seh ;lah.
had to pole dance. and guess who were the poles.
jowilly and serene.
....
wa lau
damn hard to dance lah.
well
videos are with elouis so shall post them up another day wen i get them
=))

as for the rest of the week,
i didn really do much.
but went 492 and played ball with kenji.
he went back australia today
=((
and will only be back till september.
haix..

i MISS KENJI JONES.
=))

i miss the times we spent together,
haha.

daddy bought durians.

super full now
=))

my nanny is going back phillipines tomoro.
=((
so sad..
haix..
why is everyone leaving.

sarah... stop it..
make this a happy post.
so not say much further.

hmm.
i shall go bathe now.
going out for dinner later.
=))

buh byes.

2008-07-12T07:23:00.000-07:00

heys..
hmmm. went home at 11 plus last night..siann.

last night quite boring cause
we didn play much.
so i left with eric eugene zy and chak wa to eat .
undram bought cup noodles and we cab-ed to tm cause they decided to eat there.
wth
they took bus i we waited like fuck for them to come lah.
assholes
LOL.
they finaaly reached at like 9 30? we reached at 8 plus. wth rite..
so went food court eat.
talk abit.
took phones and read smses.
and wtf i forgot my phone has smses that should not be seen cause me and my fren was playing
ant the stupid eric saw. and show all of them.
they luaghed like FUCK.
seriously.
until now still di siao me about it.
damn.
ass sia they all
after that i cabb-ed to 201 meet corren and ZY. said hi hen dinno came talk to me.
haha
sooo.
my mum called and said she will fetch me so didn really get to chat with corren they all
=(( sad.
hmm. i hae something that pissed me off today.
shall post later.

2008-07-11T00:07:00.000-07:00

hello !!
came home super early today lah..
lol.
anyway..
was kinda pissed off in the morning.
i went school.
wasn even late but mr bernard told us to stay there. after like 5 minutes the bell rang.
wtf lor.
bell haven ring then he say we late,.
ass man..
today lessons were ok..
not thattt boring
but i was super enthu over e maths. i was like wads the next question and like excited about doing it.
let me tell u.
this is not NORMAL in sarah's world.
gosh
doing e maths is fun
=))

haha
shall try to study more and tink that studying is fun.
thats wad mdm sharifah says anyway,

butt
i must study and not RETAIN
or i will die...
like seriously.

going to ball later at 228 wherever it is since they arent playing at MP.
cant wait
=))
very long never see them alr.
like corren, zheng yuan, ye zi they all.

super bored now..
im like painting my nails lah..
anyway..

here are some long long time ago pics

LUBNA!! I LOVE THIS BITCH =))

when can i feel the happiness of being loved and not ending up getting cheated.

its a torture to love someone.
my facade.
will you ever discover me or even notice me.

well.. thats all for now.
may blog again tonight wen i come home

buh byes.
=))

2008-07-10T08:31:00.000-07:00

ok..
its been FOREVER since i blogged.
=))
i know..
but was kinda lazy to update and stuff.

dont noe why but i just felt like it today.
my profile is like crap lah..
im like just SUDDENLY and TOTALLY clueless of what to write.

anyway..
loads and loads of things has happened over time.
i may have been more patient or mature..
and i must say.,..
more OPEN.(just dont try to think of wad i mean by that)

i LOVE truth or dare..
i LOVE dares..
did some crazy stuff..
in one day..
like wth..
played with my frens..
then played with my juniors after that.

well.. playing with my frens was seriously fun but disgusting..
haha
julia kept giving people a "HOLIDAY"
well.. guys would just LOVE IT!
seriously.. like stuffing yr head into her boobs.
she is just MAD.
bloody hell. me and lubna was like NO!!!!
then she had to force our head and mess our hair!!
just because she is TALL we could not do it to her.. and our heads were just nice at ger chest..

BLOODY HELL MAN..
i forgot to include that i WANT to GROW TALLER!!!
wtf man.
i shrunk like FUCK lah..
lol.

ohhh yeahh..
the one i played with my juniors were not that outrageous buttt it was entertaining
haha
elouis has videos of it..
gosh.
i was like forcing them.
poor jowilly,.
even though it wasn her dare. she got involved in it
haha
she is so FUCKING CUTE!
i just love hugging her..
so comfy.
LOls.

anyway..

met LOADS of new friends..
yay!!

anyway..
kenji is back.
so played ball quite a few times at 492 with him.
haha..

tmr..
i have to lend him my orange bra cause he wants to wear it to sentosa.
wth man.
asshole!
u better not get it dirty.
i like that bra too ok..

ANYWAY,,,,
i will be meeting my friends i met this year.
every friday in simei
haha
they really made an impact on my life..

jia da intro-ed them to me..
and i am glad he did cause they are kinda good frens.
managed to get past my holiday and boring times cause of them
=))

i think i learnt a lot or changed for the better cause of them too.
haha
well.
will tell u guys more as time goes by..

for my first pose in like ages.
i felt like i had to blog a SUPER duper long post.
haha soo don yawn yet.,

a lot of things has happened..
ant name it all out..

but .....

WE, DUNMAN GIRLS BASKETBALL B DIV HAS WON CHAMPION FOR THE MILO CUP

yay..
we were really quite happy that we won..
hey girls..
jia you for all our upcoming challenges
lets work harder together
as a team..
put aside all our differences =))

anyway..
i tink that would be all for today..

buh bye..
=))

2008-02-28T05:33:00.000-08:00

hello!!!

i finally blogged..

wen fen was bugging me.
so here i am =))

i like MIA from the internet sia.
once i turn on the com i just go straight to watch my shows
=))

hahahs.

well.
LOADS of things has happened.
and yeasterday something really really sad and disappointing happened.
i didn smile for the whole morning cause of this lah.
i don even feel like talking about it now lah.
so wadever.

amanda's chalet on saturday and i haven ask my parents yet.
damn.
shall ask later.
common test is next week
but im not planning on telling my parents.

my studies are like SHIT man.
i've not studied since school started lah.
crap!!

better buck up
=))

well.
im too lazy to continue.
don noe wen will be my nxt post.

and those who spammed my tag im not even bothered with u.
my frens have already helped me.
but i really don care about wad u said now lah.
=))

okk
buh bye!!

2007-11-25T01:24:00.000-08:00

milo cup UPDATe::
well we played 2 matches and won both as well so there will be 2 more matches left.
but we will be playing with the same teams.
wa lau.
tmr .
CONFIRM make me damn pek chek man.
don let me be in te same quater as u man.
wa lau.
si bei du lan can.
ok relax
=))

well. the match with unity wasn that bad .

ok so.. tmr having match with north vista again.,
and tuesday got match with unity
..

who am i...

2007-11-17T02:41:00.000-08:00

heyYO!!
=))

im damn bored today lah.
last night slept at like 5 am sia.
im mad.
i was watching my drama on you tube.
LOLs.
im really crazy lor.
wth.
but today jie woke me up at 1?
damn tired sia.
but no choice she got training so i had to get up and bathe =((
not that i don like to lah its just that i was freaking tired lor.
but bathed and went out for lunch after that.
dropped jie off at kallangthan went off to eat lunch with my parents.
wanted to eat roti prata but closed.
so we suddenly felt like eating beef noodles.
but it wasn nice lor.
disappointed.
yeah but anyway.
after eating lunch we went to drink coffee but i had my ice milo
=))
ohya i also had nice chocolate muffins
heheh.

well went home and straight away started watching my show again
haa.
im bloging while waiting for it to load.

might be going out for dinner later.
but not sure if going 168
long story.

hmm.,..
should i go 168 or should i just stay home to watch my show
aiya/
confused!
but if i go 168 i maybe can go my fren house play mah jong
=))
yeah!!
okok.
if my parents ring me there for dinner than i shall stay.
yay!
i've decided!

ok wadever.

the show really getting more and more exciting!!
omg.

DEAN is freaking handsome sia.
he is from the show.

but wa lau eh
he really damn handsome can.
ohyar i even had a dream.
LOLs.
nvm.
thats not important the thing is he is freaking handsome!
ok his real name is dean fujioka.
go find out more about him
=))

haiyo.
another long post.
i guess i overdid it a bit
LOLs.
u noe why. cause i have the itch to type again.
thats why cannot stop writing.
gosh.
i don noe why but the feeling quite fun leh.

well... goodbye =))

2007-11-16T10:14:00.000-08:00

heyYO!!

LoLs.
gosh.
today was like damn funny lah
don noe why i like to say hey yo
anyway.
elouis woke me up and we went to school to look at our class thingy. haix.
not gonna talk about it yet.
but it seriously damn sucky lah
ok
but the main purpose of going to school
was to clear our lockers .
but i think the sec 3s were having class there.
and after that went to elouis house and met megan and wei ting.
bus-ed to inter and ate KFC.
gosh we were so damn full man.
all of us felt like vomitting.
worst of all.
WE WERE LATE!
we supposed to have match but we were late!
lucky mr wong haven come yet sia
the stupid bus 228 take so damn long to come lor.
wa lau
we sit at the bus stop for ages lah.
but u really do have to pity elouis man,,
cause me megan and wei ting were all singing 3 diff songs at once.
LOLs.
elouis was like damn pek chek lah.
hahas.
oh yah
because of me greeting people by saying heyYO!
me wei ting and megan will like start singing beatiful girls~~
LOls.
yeah i noe kind of lame.
but u still need to have fun rite
=))
well.
today's match is dissappointing not because we played badly but because we only play 2 quarters and juniors played the other 2
cause bedok green got not enough players.
damn sian sia.
but the score was 70 plus to 20 plus.
although its kind of bad but we thrashed them.

milo cup is coming !
yeah.
can finally play match
ouhh yar after today's match we went to eat mac.
don noe why but i felt hungry again
=))
gosh i have to DIET!
LOLs.
but slacked at mac to about 5?
than went off to play ball at some nearby court
only until 6 plus wen i suddenly remembered i had to go to my piano teacher's concert
which starts at 8!!
at victoria concert hall.
wa lau
i panicked like siao sia.,
wth.
lucky wei ting elouis and serene took cab with me back home
=)
althoughi was l still late but lucky i was back in time to bathe and everything and also to let my dad fetch me there
=))
hmm...
the concert was not bad
people singing.
gosh their voiced can go damn high sia.
but at some parts i felt really sleepy cause it was kinda boring
but some really was damn nice sia.
well.
said bye to my teacher and left.
maybe at about 10 plus?
then i had to take MRT back home all by myself
=((
LOLs.
so once i reached home i started using the com!
cause my bro is not using it
!
yeah
=))

ok.
i had a really fun day today.
thanks =))

2007-11-14T12:10:00.000-08:00

ok wooahhh.. its 4.12 am in the morning!
wa i am damn tired lah.
LOLs.
but donnoe why like very lazy to switch off the lap top and sleep.
im dozing off man...

well.
had a match with VJC today
and although we didn win but results were quite good.
mr wong also seemed happy.
well today i am so damn tired sia.
ok.
after the match we went to parkway to eat and headed home .
on the bus, we planned to go cycling and so we went!
but the thing is my bro was using the bike and so i am the only 1 rollerblading.
as usual.
but wadever.
i went with qiu ru qiu fang pat yann ting and elouis and wa lau.
they cycled and i rollerbladed from tampines to pasir ris and than from pasir ris to tampines again!
thats not all .
we stopped at sunplaza to go say hello to lena and after that we headed to bedok res park.
wa lau.
damn tiring sia.
but like no meaning lor.
we reach there than just rollerblade back to tampines agian.
gosh... the amount fats i burnt
=))
me and elouis headed home but stopped to rest at 492 although my house is like just opp.
but we were super super tired.
woahh
our legs were killing us.
!!!!
ohya.
my leg sort of cramped on the way back.
LOLs.
but i didn die.
it was ok after a while.
but i cant believe i actually roller bladed so much in one day.
like more than 15 km or something.
but it was quite fun.
but mostly tiring
=))

friendly match on friday with bedok green.
hey juniors.
better do your best yeahh.
don let HIM get dissappointed
=))
if not u all will feel bad again.

jia you!!

well we all should jia you together!
whohoooo!

well although its VERY very early in the morning
i don noe y i am so high.
but the moment i stop blogging.
i tink i will off the com keep it and once my head touches the pillow....
good night or should i say good morning everyone yawns*
=))
gosh.
im getting even more absurd with every sentence im typing
dont noe why but i just suddenly feel like typing something..
just touching the keyboard to write some long story or wadever.
ouhhya,,
u all really don have to read this crap.
im just typing it for fun
hahs,

tired tired.

sarah sarah.. go to bed!!
stop blogging!
stop torturing yourself??
lols.
i tink i really have to stop it..
if it wasn this early i would gone to play piano.
don noe why but suddenly feel like playing .??
weird huh.

ooohh,.
this is quite a long post i tink.
didn really take note of it.

tmr MAY be going out with wen fen to meet amanda, but i quite tired.
but i will still go lah.
IF my parents let.
i tink ive been going out TOO MUCH!
i also forgot to INFORM them that i was going roller blading with my fren.
lucky no nagging or scolding was involved wen my mum came home.

okok.
i really cant ttake it already
i need to GET MY sleep!!
its very precious.
if not i tink i will wake up at like 1 or 2 plus lor.
wth,
im a lazy girl
!!!
but this must be changed.

forgot to say.
no. 14 from VJC is super strong sia.
LOLs.
and also super tall.
shes like some all-rounder or something.

ahhhh!!!!!!!
sarah please stop crapping !!
very lame.
ok peeps.
goodbyee

oh no!
i dozed off
ok this is it !
good night
=))

2007-11-11T03:52:00.000-08:00

woah..
damn full now lahs.
my mum cooked ox tail stew and pasta . wah seh. damn full now lah.
LOLs.
lucky tomoro got training can burn off the fats.
i wish we can have friendly match soon lor.
now keep training like quite boring lor.
that time re-sprained my ankle i think it should be ok now bahs.
didn really go and see a doctor.
a bit swollen but i can run.
so tomoro's training i not sure if i should do it or not lor.
if i dont than i will be like super bored watching them train.
hmmm..

ive decided.
i shall participate in training.
mr wong also say that we don need to run.
=))

well i shall go back to watching my drama.
buh bhye.

wish i could have a drama on my own.
...

2007-11-09T23:35:00.000-08:00

gosh.. i am like so damn bored lah
wa lau eh
.
im like staying at home only to watch show can.
LOLs.
i keep watching video lor.
i am super addicted to it.
my poor eyes.
LOLs.
well...
im at home alone now(exept for my maid)
but still im like spending all my free time watching videos.
=))

2007-11-08T09:56:00.000-08:00

ello dusty blog =))

its been like super long since i blogged yeah..
but don noe why i don have the mood to blog. well since im bored i shall blog!
gosh i am like damn sway lor.
sprained my ankle AGAIN!
actually not counted again bah.
its also cause that time haven fully recover than training that time my leg suddenly got weak and so i fell.. hmm.. maybe thats it.
well tomoro got training again.
i donnoe whether should train or not leh.
cause my leg still hurts.
haix.

well , i have been addicted to tv dramas and i thnk im going mad.
better rest my eyes
=))

its so boring.
not having someone really makes it boring and hurtful.

gosh ive not had fun for this holiday!
oh man.
im like desperate for fun.

theres nothing else i can say already.

2007-10-24T08:49:00.000-07:00

ello.
yeah
went out on saturday to celebrate wen fen's birthday
=))
pictures currently unavailable but they all suck.
sian lah.
i need to lose weight
lols.

now!! my ankle is swollen!
but it is recovering
=))
so i will be back in action very very soon
i must train hard!
yay
milo cup is coming
excited.
but i scared it will crash with my holiday1
oh no better ask mr wong.

2007-10-18T06:13:00.000-07:00

hello!!

we finally got back our results....

and mine is like SHIT!!

wtf.

shit u noe shit!

the subject i tot which could pull my marks up disappointed me.

gosh..

i feel so sad lahs.

i cant believe.

don noe wad happen .
damn it lahs

anyway taday i had training and it was not that bad.

but our first training was quite tough.

after training went to TM to have lunch and then headed to sunplaza to ball more
!!
so i left bout 7 and went back to that place to go to my piano lessons.

and it was about ..

10 wen i left there so while walking home saw my frens.

played a little bit of badminton and went home after sending my fren.

i reached home at about 12 and got scolded by my mum. lols.
damn it lahs.

keep telling me to remember that i am only fourteen.
wth.

i noe wad i am doing lahs.

bloody hell.

ok so anyway.

the next day i woke up with a TERRIBLE MUSCLE ACHE in my legs.

god damn it.

it was freaking pain lahs.

but wen fen already asked me to go out shopping with her.

and wth.

my legs were KILLING ME LAHS.

we walked from like 2 or 3 to maybe 8~ 9 plus.
wa lau eh.

it was damn painful lahs.

i couldn even bend down lahs.

oh ya.. going up and down the stairs was also VERY energy consuming.

haix.

was freaking tired out lahs.

here are the pictures

=))

thanks dears..

for that fun day

=))

2007-10-13T08:56:00.000-07:00

ello.
E-O-Ys is finally over.
thank goodness man.
the only thing left to worry about is the RESULTS!!!!
ok so anyway. wadever.
im like freaking angry lahs.
my father atill don really let me go out~!
Wtf!
hope i can go out tmr.
i need new clothes!
or i think i can go die already.
my clothes are getting older.
but wa lau
i really want to go out and play lahs
freaking sian lor.
everyday..

u hated it wen they did that to you but now u r doing the same.
only u r luckier.

haix.
this sucks man.
not how i imagined my post exams days to be.
so now i am like addicted to dramas that i have not watched.
=))
i can like forget wad is day and night wen i start sias.
aiya. i wanna watch my tv already
=))

buh byes.

2007-10-11T00:29:00.000-07:00

hello blog!
well i had like more pictures for the previous post but i am like freaking busy and lazy to upload them
.
well i have been like MIA for so darn long
don't ya'll miss me.
lols.
things like the fucking E-O-Ys
and schoolwork and tests and almost everything has kept me away from the computer!!
sian lah.

damn... i feel like seriously alienated sometimes but im not gonna go all sad today
=))

ok. im very busy with my art
and my printer spoil~
so i have to draw from my com.
wa lau
not good lor
cannot see clearly and at every angle.
well.
im aiming for A1
so it can pull up my results and position.
god
i am SO GONNA FAIL MATHS
that is such a FUCKING difficult paper lah
almost EVERYONE
could not finish lor.
even those from 2c also cannot lor.
mr lew is really ah
....
can die wan leh
i didn even sleep for the paper lahs
!!
im gonna die for all my exams
im either gonna stay in 2F
or drop to normal A
but its not anyone's fault cause i think i could have put in more effort
.
but my tone will definately change wen i get my results
cause i'll be too sad to even think bout anything at all
haix..
well i had better get back to my butterfly and tiger.
(ive decided to change animal.)
well...

buh bye blog!
=))

2007-09-12T03:43:00.000-07:00

hi everyone!
did u miss me?
omg!
wu han was so damn fun lahs
wooo~~~
many embaressing photos taken and not with my camera!!
shit!
its with my teacher.
god.
today lan lao shi showed the class some of our photos and i was like damn pai seh lahs.
oh yah.
there was a shot of me wearing my HUGE sunglasses and i totally looked cool lah.

lols.
jkjk.
im just RATHER bhb today.
pardon me yeah
lols.
i seriously miss wu han like mad lahs.
the nights we spent playing in our rooms.
disobeying the teachers and even performing for those wu han people!!
ouhh. there were some hiccups during the performance but overall it was GOOD!
yeah!
lols.
good job to those in my group and even better job to all of us singing together =))
hahas
yupps
our da he chang was quite good
cause i was the freaking lead singer!
lucky tess was also singing and so she saved dunman's face lols.
i was so scared i will zou yin but lucky i didn.
lols.
2 people singing on the microphone really made it better.
=))
oh my.. there are just too many stuff that happened sia.
and i t was all freaking funny lahs.

ouhhyah.
it was kinda hard to communicate with them but it was ok.
my chinese ain't so bad ok.
anyway.
took a lot of photos. but it was all about their history and i don noe wad i should do with it now lorl.

2007-08-24T07:12:00.001-07:00

ahh
freaking common tests.
im like totally stressed out over it and im not using the computer cause of it!
well only today cause wen fen is staying over and we =turned the computer on and so..
here i am using it =))

hahas.

so staight after common test i will be leaving for WU HAN!
yays.
so i will be like leaving on saturday morning.
=))
damn excited lah.
but it will be like so damn rush lorrs./
so i must get ready for wu han and my common tests =))
well i took loads and loads of VERY SPASTIC photos lols.

dance!!
cool =))

i feel like dancing. oh my god.
lols,.
i wanna go play / dance alr
buh byes!

2007-08-17T07:30:00.000-07:00

hello!

gosh.. im like so full now man.

anyway.

dunman is out of nationals.

we're all really dissapointed.
theres nothing we could do.
we could only try harder for next year so jia you people
=))

well i will have to start worrying bout something.
cause i tink i will be damn bothered by it lah.
so...

today,
i had dance rehearsel for wu han performance and luckily
i noe how to do it.
cause it is really quite easy.
lols.
but i hope it will turn out good
=))

common test.
wtf.
its always these few sentences.
i will be studying later
=))
if i don't i will be dead meat man.

argh..
anyway.
i feel so stressed now lah.
and oh shit.
i forgot my dnt file.
FUCK!
i seriously JUST remembered!
how could i forget.
shit lah.
now i need to go back to school to take it.
sian sia.

ok.
i will go back to my games.

buh byes.

=))

2007-08-14T05:07:00.000-07:00

hello people.

er..
common test is in two freaking weeks!
wtf!
i didn even start studying!!
ok. well, i should say i didn even do 1 of my homework!
its like
WTF.WTF.
the worse thing is although im like so nervous and all i still got no mood to study even wen i really want to!
oh god.
theres something really wrong with me huh.
its like seriouslY LAH.
i, sarah tan is in DEEP FUCKING SHIT!!
oh well.
im really so tired these few days and
mei geok just told me that we have a match tmr and thursday!
shit lah.
2 daya row lah.
damn it.
i am happy to have a match but i will be like missing my dance rehearsels AGAIN.
and the teacher is so gonna kill me lah.
but the dance is like really simple lor.
ahh.
don noe wad to tell her sia.
confirm will got a scolding lahs
ok.
this is such a bad period of life for me.
but not the worst.
i cant believe im like still enjoying.
haix.will someone save me
from this lazyness of mine!

anyway. just been told that julia's gonna be modelling for something
i don noe.
but i wanna go see!!
hope my parents will allow me.
=))

oh yah.
for our second round we got nanyang girls, unity and jurong west.
oh my..
hope that we will win.
been playing rather badly and mr wong kept saying that he was very dissapointed with us.
=((
so i hope i will play well.

ok. jia you sarah!

leaving for wu han first sep.
oohhhh
excited.
but i wanted to be in the same room and group as elouis...
=((
oh well
its ok.
ting xuan is not bad too
=))
i wanna do so many stuff.
but i don have the time o fulfil all my wants and dreams
damn.

flying away now. buh bye.
i noe that was lame.
VERY LAME.
but wtf.
im not in the best of moods.=))

BYE PEOPLE.

2007-08-10T06:06:00.000-07:00

hie!! well these are the photos from the aeptitude exhibition.

its damn cool alrite.

=))

enjoyed myself much .

hope to go to another art exhibition with (kumie and the rest) lols

=))

all of these painting really has a lot of meaning and u really

need o get immersed in it to understand the art of others.

ok i noe it sounds like crap but i really am starting to likr art a lot.

=))

this doll looks kind of scary but theres a meaning to it all .

one of my favourite drawings. lucky YOU asked me to take
the photo closer lols. thanks yeah

=))

there are many many more but didn get the chance to take all the photos =(

anyway. happy belated birthday singapore.

friendly with home united tmr.

i hope i will play well

=))

anyway im damn tired lah.

yesterday teachersa and coaches treated us to a steamboat buffet. it was like so damn freaking painful lah. rebecca added so much butter and it kept like spitting out lah.

the oil is damn fucking painful lah. it even went into my eye!\

it was such a painful and oily experience lols. but before and after that it was fun.

we had training in the morning and i went home to eat and get ready.

daphne wasn going so she came to my house and soon after lena arrived.

i didn noe wad to wear lah and they were like playing with all my things and we were sort of experimenting on each other lols. so with lena's help i finally chose wad i wanted to wear

and after that lena was complaining bout THINGS

and she wore my crown! so she wouldn look like a **** but i took it back from her wen we were like leaving the place!

lena ong did not want to return my crown to me!

but she really did look more girly with it =))

lols.

i wanna go out more often!

i just realised that i need to wear my clothes or it will be buried deep in my closet!!

didn take many pics.

but i like this one =))

i was like damn irritated with my hair lah,

couldn do anything with it but...............

i went to thin it today!

yay!

well i have like shorter fringe and super duper thin hair. wth rite.

lols

anyway.

it looks ok and im happy with it.

=))

well i wanna play my games now lols.

buh bye.

ps. i noe im childish and im proud to be

2007-08-07T08:11:00.000-07:00

hello!
ok updates!~
i am now struggling with homework .. as usual/
=))
failing maths. well thats normal too.
and well we've won 2 matches in nationals. but we didn play well.
and i am gonna have training tmr.
oh ya!
i will also be having a dinner with the whole dmn basketball =))
hahas.
our coaches r gonna BURN A HOLR IN THEIR POCKETS!!
muahahaha.
ok.
i don usually do that but wth.
soo.
im gonna try to study and play well for basketball
=))
good aims huh.
see ive got goals.
=))

im a good girl seriously.
i really dont understand y u all think otherwise.
lols.
i am just a wee ibit vulgar but overall.
im good.!
GET IT
lols.
well
lots of things to do
BYE!

2007-07-31T05:18:00.000-07:00

well... didn blog for so long.

damn. i just hope a can repair my lap top lah.
wtf.

well tmr is our first match!

yay!

haha

well... we will be up against zhong hua tmr.

so jia you bahs

=))

k. so i just finished the last book of harry potter.

and i don care if people say it was boring in the front cause i think the whole book rocks lah.

well many died and it was so sad lah.

almost cried but was outside so i tried not to.

lols

im into acoustic songs now =))
its actually nice ok. well i think i like all kinds of music. even those old old songs

it has a lot of meaning in them lols.

but well you've got to be patient to listen to those songs..

i would really recommend jason marz cause i really like some of his songs.

=))

well here are some pictures. haha.

these are the lovely presents i received from
my team.. haha =)) thanks.

well.. i love this frame lah. many of my beloved frens are in

princess's heart alrite!!

cute huh. its a lolipop.

mei geok gave it to us before a match

haha. sort of a good luck present to us. lols.

but it tasted nice and it was CUTE!

i couldn resist =)) it was too cute! i just had

to take a picture with it haha..

that coach's new dog. its really cute lols.
everyone was like going crazy over her.(its a girl)

a clearer picture. isnt it oh-so-cute!!

it is so white and pure. coach told me that it was love at first

sight wen he saw that dog.

ok so we were really bored in the bus.

kinda blur but the bus was vibrating like mad.

you cant blame me for that =))

heres another cute treat for you.

his name is anthony but im not really the one in love with him lahs.

=)) well 2F... i liked 1F more but this class is quite ok

but it rocks also cause of some people.

well it sucks cause of some too =))

well i think those who noe me will noe who they are,

hahas.

this neoprint was taken long ago.

TEAM!

many of my beloved are in there.

<33>

well now u noe how our lessons infected our brain lols
=))

its love.. they cheered me up loads of times and i am grateful

=)) lols

i miss them =((

the fun times we had together.

we'll be together until now
=))

our friendship will remain strong =)

second in east zone.

sad but we won't give up =))

we will make it in the nationals.

yupps.

this is us.

the C'division 2007

girls and guys

team..

well.. this is it.

a lot huh.

my butt is aching already lols.

bye!

2007-07-26T05:48:00.000-07:00

oh yes..
i want to thank all the supporters who came to cheer us on today.
thanks
and sorry for letting u all down.
we will definately try harder next time
=))

2007-07-26T05:41:00.000-07:00

We lost to anglican high...
but they played well..
good job =))
we just had to work harder.

if only i did more offensive work...

my leg and back is killing me!!

i hope we will reach our goal.
this is just a minor setback.

but i really wanted to win also because i wanted to show others that dunman or rather we basketball players can also earn something.
teachers usually pick on us just because we are basketball players and they think that we are all very mischeivious and don give a damn about anything
but i guess we couldn show them that this time round but we will definately show it to them during nationals.

we won give up =))

jia you team..

good game AHS
all the best.
=))

2007-07-22T05:12:00.000-07:00

ah!!
my father bought the new harry potter book for me!
yays!
lols.

anyway.
we are now in the semi finals.
played on monday with ngee ann
hope we can get to the finals and got 1st!
the competitons really tough for us.
=((
but im really happy that we got all the way here as a team
=))
oh ya and i also have to thank the netballers for their support.
and also my classmates

homeworks piling up like shit lah
..
but i still don feel like doing..
oh well.
i better buck up lols...
buh bye

2007-07-11T08:26:00.000-07:00

its been long.

im bored.

im gonna have homework overload

im not gonna do anything

im gonna slack although i don't want to.

its hurting me.

i don noe hu to turn to.

im neither here nor there

everyone has someone except me.

oh, how i hope...

shant be too emo

it speaks for me. theres no life in it anymore.

my miracle is not coming...

me and wen fen. changi airport. my eyes are small here=((

should i say further?

mummy. me. jie <3
=))

i love them. sorry for losing my temper

at silly stuffs.

lols. we were talking bout baby fats

and we were spas enough to do this =))

no matter wad. i love u girls <3

lols. mr tan zi lian =))

my niece damn cute rite. she's only 3 years old leh

lols. she is damn cute lah...

and finally... lee jun ki!!!
he is fucking hot lah.. =))

well thats it for today..
bye.

2007-07-05T09:04:00.000-07:00

hello!!
thx netballers for your concerns and support
=))
best of frens
yeah.
even if we arent in the same cca
we still care bout each other
=))
tats cool huh.
anyway
east zone so far has been good. but we cant be complacent
my knee hurts lah
wen i go into court im like a mummie!
my hand is still injured so i need to bandage it,
my knee injured also need to wrap.
if i fall again i tink im gonna die lah.
it hurts like hell
but no matter wad i will control.
until my match is over then i'll start screaming
=))
i didn do homework.,. again.
wtf
so i shall not care and go to bed
=))
good night

2007-06-29T08:35:00.000-07:00

i can't take the stress no longer.
they think its so easy.

stop bitching.

wtf.
you change until like tat.
u r becoming such a fucker.
ever tot of other people's feelings?
shouting like a lunatic.
hope u realise it.

stop the teasing.
its too much.

i feel like giving up.
i don have it.
i tried but still cant do it.
wads the use.
might as well get another person.
im not good enough.

im loosing it.
theres no one to help me.
i cant help it.
i really cant watch on any further.
i will start thinking bout many things.

am i tat bad a person?

2007-06-23T23:42:00.000-07:00

i just bought a new phone!
so now can take lotss of pictures lols
but i didn charge it for 8 hours at first lor.
oh no.
die.
if it spoils i am so fucking dead lols
speaking of being so fucking dead , i noe i will get scolded tomoro wen i return to school.
i didn do a single hw lah.
so dead dead dead.
nvm
i shall do the stupid ace learning now!
tuesday is the start of our east zone tournament and i am like soo scared.
i hope we can win
lols
anyway
my phone can blog pictures i just took but i don noe how to use it.
can someone help me? lols.
theres so little memory in it now lor.
i tink i better go buy the 1G thing but don noe if my parents would buy f0r me =((

anyway.
i better buck up once school starts if not i will be dead meat
=))

take care peeps

2007-06-22T08:45:00.000-07:00

ah.. skools coming soon!
i am gonna be so fucking dead lah..
i DID NOT DO ANY OF MY HOMEWORK!
not one at all lah.
and up till now i still don feel like doing it..
i am so dead.
wah.. i realise i die a lot in this life huh..

im so bored..

ive got some thing to say....

i really feel like i have no where and no one for me anymore.

Lee jun Ki!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2007-06-19T07:10:00.001-07:00

this song is so touching..
i wanna learn how to sing it=))
so i am gonna learn to sing it
!!
lee jun ki is hotoh ya..u can watch his other videos by clicking the diff shows at the side.the second song is called pabo sarang(foolish love)although the song is hip but the lyrics quite sad.erm..the third one is ljk dancing.and isnt it just so gorgeous!he is sososo cool!he is multi talented!he can sing dance act do martial arts tae kwon do and can speak diff languages also lor!ahh!my idol!=))lee jun ki is hot hot hot!pardon me for my crazynesslolsbut he is really an idol cause he acheived it.he also received awards ok..i hope u like him too=))

2007-06-14T21:03:00.000-07:00

i am such a pig..
every single day either play basketball or watch my dramas..
haix.. can die man,..
now i am crazy over my girl.. and it made me cry again.
wth.
damn it lah.
im so emo.
wtf!!
lee joon ki so poor thing in the show lor..
i want him to be with her..
lols
crapping.......
but he quite shuai wan lor.
=))
not sure if i shld watch wei xiao pasta again
lols
it would be the third time
....
ok
so now u noe how pigg i am
=))
but all these is just to keep me from thinking..
very no mood nowadays..
don even feel like going out t play lor
something is very wrong with me...

2007-06-09T22:13:00.000-07:00

i don't noe why but i feel so sad after hearing some songs.
even wen it just has a sad melody i will just feel like crying..
wads wrong with me?
guess its not the song but my mood and how im feeling.
i long for those comforts.
i long for freedom.
i long for trust and friends.
but i guess i will never have it..
cause im not tat important or wadever.

buh bye.

2007-06-09T22:01:00.000-07:00

hello.
holidays r boring.
im like lazing around at home everyday.
doing nothing
exept watching shows and playing the com
=))
im becoming a junkie!
lols
lucky next week got many many matches.
=)
and i ll be busy again!
i really want to study but don feel like lor.
i also wan go exercise but got no chance to.
haix.

i am so dead
=))

2007-06-08T10:01:00.000-07:00

hi..
didn blog for so long cause i cant get onto this website or wadever lah..
frustrating.
damn it lor.. everytime i wanna blog also cannot.
finally...

its been long..
i feel really lonely..
like theres nothing to do at all.
everyday.. wasting my time away if theres nothing to do..
thinking. then feel sad.
i feel so fucking useless.
i am fucking useless.
i guess i cant do anything rite after all.
i wanna study or do something useful but theres something stopping me.
maybe im just plain lazy..
a person hu no matter does wad still cant get it rite.
no matter how i train or study.
i cant get good results or improve.
i really am useless.
y am i even born..
i think im losing it..
hope i can die
and end it all.
i won't make any difference to anyone after all.
i feel or sense your hatred.
but y do i deserve this.
i really don mean todo anything wrong..
i really hope i can be somebody.
or someone hu is important to people.
not just some substitute or a person tat u all show pity for..
i want t be left alone.
cause i noe u all don wan me with u.
im just so annoying to u.
i want to try not to be.
but i don noe. its hu i am.
and no matter how hard i try.
u all wouldn change your impression on me huh.
it really breaks my heart.
my patience is running thin..
one day, i may not be able to control my anger.
please. stop teasing me stop criticising me.
stop attacking me with wadever.
cause im really hurt..
i have no more ego and pride left in me.
not even when im at home i am protected by all these.
if u think im just some bitch complaining bout something useless then don read my blog.
do any of u all actually noe wad is going through in my life
and how i feel?
if u don't than u have no right to criticise me.

is it worth it to work tat hard?
is it stupid to give up after everything?
i don't noe..
i cant do anything.
i shall just get by day after day or maybe just give up completely when i cant take it..
my peserverence determination is deeply weakened.
please.
will a miracle come to me?
will there still be hope?
please..
im desperate.

well.
i gotta go now..
buh bye..

2007-05-02T07:34:00.000-07:00

heys.. so long never post cause of the stupid com dunno y cannot go into blogger..
i cant study sia.
i don noe y.
i wan to but i just cant.
imm so lazy mann.
cant bring myself to study..
then later will start to regret..
lame rite..
haix.
try again later or tomoro bahs..
take care people.
good luck for yer exams yeah..

2007-04-28T07:03:00.000-07:00

hello.
went out with yann ting mei geok pat qiu ru qiu fang karen andrea and joey today.
wtf. suppose to study in tamp de but in the end they went to changi airport and we didn even study anything there lahs. lol
at first go mac study then change place.
cant find anywhere and we walked and walked.
joey left first cause she was in pain
so me and yann ting went to pei her to the taxi stand. good rite.
haha.
after tat we took the skytrain to T1 and to popeyes there to study
and it was such a short while lahs.
ouhhya. andrea pronounced it as POP-EYES lols.
funny luhh she.
today quite fun lah. but...
nvm...
anyway. we made fun of each other and played together./
lols.
makes us bond.
touching huh.
=))
but today got a lot of people sick and i am getting a sore throat from last nights incident.
lol
lucky "dear" was there.
haha.

edison tan.

lols.
wild imagination.

trying not to be emo but its hard.
im trying to brighten up.
so..

i am just sorry.

2007-04-27T10:23:00.000-07:00

ah.
i bet today everyone is like so angry luhh.
don wanna say it out but wth lah.
waste my time and everyone's time only
fuck lahs.

anyway
today had english remedial
and ms tan damn funny luhh
she go raid my fren hp.
and she let us order bubble tea and food
so good rite.
after skool went for study session wif basketballers.
and we were playing in the library.=))
went to bubble tea shop to slack and the INCIDENT happened there
but wth
wasted my time and at night also waste my time
so wth
its yr choice lah.

ah my stomach hurts bad mann.
i wanna go eat!

2007-04-20T07:08:00.000-07:00

hi peeps.
went to the netball match today.
they won 30-17.
yay!
so happy for u dears.
wen they won i cried lor omg. it was like so touching and im not even in netball lols.
jus cried like tats.
wei ting cried to and we hugged each othe for comfort.
wen i went down, marianne wanted to hug me then she say she sticky wen i say nvm she jus like jumped onto me lahs. lols.
they were so happy
dunman c division netball national 1st!
love u all yeah.
i also hugged lubna and oh ya,
lubna u were even wetter and stikier than marianne lols.
but i still love u.
anyway it was an excitingg game.

we were like waiting for the last bus and we were like so smart lah.
the previous buses were like so cramped and we managed to get a whole bus for ourselves cause there was no space in the other buses.
smart rite.
lols

anyway wen we reached dunman we went to slack at wei ting's house. her house is so comfortable lahs.
just love it mann.
den we played and after tat all of us were hungry. we wanted to go to the bubble tea shop at first but we changed our minds and ate kfc delivery instead lols.
we ordered a lot lah and it was like $64 like tat lor.
anyway
it was yummy and we were like super full lah. but after tat we went to play in her room and on her bed everything. we crapped a lot lah.
it was so fun. we were laughing like mad lor.
after tat w went home and here i am blogging =))
we also bitch-ed a lot bout stuff lols.
there was like 11 people in wei ting house lor.

i wanna have tat kind of life. y wasn i there to have it. i suit it more.
haix.
i would love my life if it was like tat lahs.
haix!
y everything i want seems to be not in favour of me. and its so far away.
my dreams since young will never be fulfilled.

2007-04-18T08:12:00.000-07:00

sorry for being emo. but i jus had to get at least 30 % of it off my chest.

sorry.

2007-04-18T07:46:00.000-07:00

If I could escape
I would, but first of all let me say
I must apologize for acting, stank and treating you this way
Cause I've been acting like sour milk fell all on the floor
It's your fault, you didn't shut the refrigerator
Maybe that's the reason I've been acting so cold?

If I could escape
And re-create a place as my own world
And I could be your favorite girl
Forever, perfectly together
And tell me boy, now wouldn't that be sweet?
If I could be sweet
I know I've been a real bad girl
I didn't mean for you to get hurt
So ever, we can make it better
And tell me boy, now wouldn't that be sweet?

the sweet escape.

we r all emo.

i didn noe cann. or maybe u r jus making it up. to save yr fucking face =))
asshole lah.
u were not even seriuos lah.
i am so dumb
ah!!!!!!!!
cant believe it.
y did i believe?
lucky no one was told.
u made me a fool.
ouhh forget it.
cant say.
it just breaks my heart.
now i noe..
tats all i can say.

i have to be careful of wad i say cause my bro will read.
well look at this shuan...
FUCK OFF LAH! ASSHOLE! STOP LOOKING AT MY STUFF!
SPOILT BRAT..
ok.. actually got more to scold wan but i tink better not.
later i become to vulgar and lose control!

been trying to study but i cant!
sure regret later lor.
hope my enthusiasm would last me the whole yr or maybe until mid year.

what do u take me for.

fuck u.

u made me like tat.

u tink this is nothing.

jerk!

its over

i didn noe.

u shld be sorry.

cant confide.

never.

start saying stuff.

i noe u all.

im a joke.

im nothing!

to u

i hope,, things can change.
i hope i can reverse time.
i hope i wasn born
i hope i was different.
i hope i could be happy.
i hope i will change.
i hope i wont make such a mistake again.
i hope i wil study
i hope u will confide in me.
i hope u will trust me.
i hope u will change yr opinions of me.
i hope i could be perfect
i hope u will treat me well
i hope i will not be a joke.
i hope i will get chosen.
i hope u will change
i hope u will dissappear.
i hope i can get anything.
i hope i am you.
i hope u will stop.
i hope u all will stop discriminating me.
i hope u all will stop insulting me.
i hope i can defend myself.
i hope u all can respect me.
i hope i can DIE...

im sorry if i did something bad to all or anyone of u
i have feelings.
respect me.
i will be angry if u r rude to me and treat me badly.
im sorry if i will give u attitude but tats me.

cuts.slits.no way.maybe?.never again.

2007-04-13T08:33:00.000-07:00

ah.. gosh..
im so tired.
im like damn exhausted lahs.
cant take it any more.

todays FRIDAY THE THIRTEEN!!
BEWARE.
lols

its been almost a month. if u are not going to make a sign or respond wads the use of this.
i HATE u
y am i so foolish.
i need advice!

stupid dumdum never even help me solve this damn bloody problem. i can still remember it lahs.

the smell.

anyway, ive really been studying and trying hard to get good grades.
hope my efforts won't be wasted.

im a LAZY girl =))
mus CHANGE!

jia you. jia you.

im 1/10000 happy!
at least there is one thing tat made me happy today.

anyway, today had traning at simei and wa lau i don noe wad mr wong talking about lah. like everything my fault like tat. damn irritated lahs.
i hate 131.
the full court press i don noe how to defend lor. damn its.
after training went to kfc to eat wif qiu ru qiu fang yann ting elouis pat.
ok onli me yann ting and elouis was eating lah but qiu fang they all went to buy cheese fries cause it was tempting!
after tat bus-ed back home. and wen we reached the tpjc bus stop we were planning to walk all the way home. but we will fetch elouis go back first so no need to take bus.
but this stupid bimbo yann ting lols.
wwas like so confused and we kept explaining to her and she just got everything wrong!
we were like laughing like siao and a lot of people stare at us but we explain to her like siao but she still don get it wa lau
we were like damn pek chek lahs
then qiu ru they all went to take thier bus and me and elouis walk with yann ting to explain to her EVERYTHING but i tink she still don get it. she was being crazy on the way home lah!
so embarassing.
then we met wei ting! she was like sceaming while walking towards us lols.
then we chatted a while then she went home so we continued our journey to home.
i reached home bout 730
ouhh. so darn tired lahs.
tomoro got match mus jia you!
so stressed!
scared tat i will make mistakes,

ouhh ya on the way to training we took same bus as jia da and..
daphne was like shouting at him lah. and the whole bus can hear lols.
he keep complaining to me tat her voice very sharp lols.
then we chatted on msn.

see the real part of u says:
stupid sarah
see the real part of u says:
wat is tat gal call ar?
STUDY! i 'hate exams. says:
?
STUDY! i 'hate exams. says:
which gal
see the real part of u says:
tat keep on talking wont stop one
STUDY! i 'hate exams. says:
lols
STUDY! i 'hate exams. says:
daphne
STUDY! i 'hate exams. says:
hah
see the real part of u says:
wat
STUDY! i 'hate exams. says:
don blame me lah
STUDY! i 'hate exams. says:
i never say u lehs
see the real part of u says:
i nv la
see the real part of u says:
i noe u r de best
see the real part of u says:
STUDY! i 'hate exams. says:
lols
and now his nick is.... SARAH TAN IS THE BEST lols.
okok
wannna h=go now. now crazy bout the sweet escape.
gwen stefani

buh bye loves.
=))

2007-04-09T05:46:00.000-07:00

hello!
i am like trying to study history now.
wth.
tmr got test and i don even noe wad the chapter is about!
haiz. mus try to study!
no matter wad. still must look through and write notes. yeah. lols

today is like super tiring lahs.
training.: 1st- warm up
2nd- five kinds of lay up left and right. 50 each lay up and centre lay up 100!
(we were like freaking tired lahs. all dying from dehydration. we even created an hotline for ourselves so people can donate money to save us lols. wen we r tired we make up lots of crap =)) the hotline is!! 971110864 its our jersey number! lols. lame rite anyway the number is i tink wan but the idea is definately not mine.. i tink =)) hahas.)
3rd- playing match and doing full court press!
wahs. my group is like super sway lah. the other two group only play like 3 or 2 times but we play like 4 times leh. siao lor. tired! esp me! lols.
4th- doing fast break drills.
wa lau the whole training is like full of running and fast breaking. can die ah!

im crazy bout tis song!

Only Hope
by Mandy Moore
album: Best Of (2004)
There's a song that's inside of my soul.
It's the one that I've tried to write over and over again
I'm awake in the infinite cold
But you sing to me over and over and over again
So I lay my head back down
and I lift my hands and pray
to be only yours
I pray to be only yours
I know now you're my only hope
Sing to me the song of the stars.
Of your galaxy dancing and laughing and laughing again
When it feels like my dreams are so far
Sing to me of the plans that you have for me over again
So I lay my head back down,
and I lift my hands and pray
to be only yours
I pray to be only yours
I know now you're my only hope
I give you my destiny
I'm giving you all of me
I want your symphony
Singing in all that I am
At the top of my lungs
I'm giving it back
So I lay my head back down,
and I lift my hands and pray
to be only yours I pray
to be only yours I pray
to be only yours
I know now you're my only hope

lols. i don noe y!

ok. i need to study!
buh byes~!

2007-04-07T00:25:00.000-07:00

hello.

i decided to be a good girl.
and now i am going to study.
muz have good results. bbut i tink tat would be quite hard.
no matter how hard i study also cant have good results.
keep trying but its the same.
haiz

to study, i even rejected my lao po wen she asked me to go out.
my parents may not allow also lah cos ive been going out this few days.

heys.. have u all tot of wad u wanna be wen u grow up or wad u wanna work as?
i have and i really don noe wad i want
i don wan a normal life but i want to be happy and not worried of being poor.haha
wen i was young i wanted to be an actress, singer or dancer.
haha
now, maybe i still think about it.
but if its impossible. maybe teaching?
but my results have to be good lahs.
haha
erm.
im planning to go jc but not sure if i can make it
but anyway
im trying to change my lifestyle
although may not have much difference cause i am a very very LAZY GIRL
lols
its true lahs.
everytime i want to study only will study a while then tired le
no determination.
its hard to succeed if u r me.
its easy to succeed if u r .....

ok anyway, wish me good luck in getting good results!
may blog again tonight yeah.
buh byes.

2007-04-06T09:30:00.000-07:00

im back.. haha..

i realised im not tat important.. maybe not just realised. i guess i was wondering if i was important to other people and now i guess i know im not.
im so stupid.
actually tot i had chances. i guess i can never do anything..
if u show me concern it may just be on account tat we r frens and just ordinary frens.
oh forget it..
my crap.. no one cares!
envyENVYenvyENVYenvyENVYenvy.
its a poison.
its injected in ME...
HOPEhappinessLOVEchancesCONCERNeverything tat could make meHAPPY!
is definately not given to me.
not even teeny weeny bit.
maybe i dont deserve it?
i dont belong here.
i just know it.

my life is like a STAGE.
im just an actress. doing nothing exept following the script..
having nothing to succeed or survive.
i will be kicked out soon.
everything i do is being criticised.
if its ..... it will definately be different. feelings for each other will be just the same.
y is life full of critism.

i wanna do so many stuff!
if onli there were no consequences, stress, critism, judging by other people of wad i do or did in life.
it would be just PERFECT.
i noe it would not happen for me.
but for others maybe it will.
i try not to care bout other people and wad they think but its really hard wen u r feeling low.
and have no true frens.
my life is my life. i live it. if yr not happy. fuck off.

being original?
i guess no one is original even if they think they are original.
everything is all in our minds.

its been about 3 weeks.
no signs no responses.
hope u will take the first step for the good or for the bad. i don really care anymore.
two times..
but im not sure if its true.
but i guess im not worth tat much to others.
if life could just end....
its confusing huh.
being on the bright side then going back to darkness.
its always like tat.

im sorry if ure confused.
im confused myself.
dont ask me y.
i don wanna say anything. but im afraid i will just give in again. and have no privacy.
no secrets.
i just wanna bottle evrything up and not let anyone comment on me.

2007-03-27T05:42:00.001-07:00

hahas. had home econs practical today =))
tot it was going to be a damn failure but we actually pulled through mann. thanks to me and petrina
haha
she stayed at my house until 12 in the night jus to finish lor.
wth it was like really midnight work sia but we were one of the better groups today
haha
thanks to me!
jkjk.
i made pasta bolognese and it tasted good mann.
the cake looked nice too =)
but mdm sharifah helped us a bit haha
our theme is birthday party and i made presents made of air!
talented rite. haha
after skool went to the gym and i wrestled with karen there lols'
lame lahs.
after tat i went to the library and i slept the whole time there while pat did her dnt.
hahah
after tat i became sick. damn cold luhh
my eyes were like bloodshot and i kept sneezing and coughing. had such a hard time sia
now still sick.. haix..
jus quarelled with my mom and bro
i cant stand him lor
sickening selfish bastard.
wad he wan he must have. selfish brat.
always take my stuff.
haix forget it. i am a sway person...

2007-03-27T05:42:00.000-07:00

2007-03-23T08:29:00.000-07:00

so long never blog =)) been busy.
don noe wad to blog about
had traning then after tat mr wong talked.. i don noe y but i felt like going outside skool
to run.
wen i going out alr than qiu ru pat qiu fang say go run wif me. they tot i very sad than they go pei me.. haha..
kind ah..
wen we running finish we met yannting and rebecca jogging slowly haha
we all so guai mann..
after tat wen fen ask me pei her and i ended up going home at 830 instead of 7 plus..
lucky my mum didn scold me much.
=((

2007-03-14T11:52:00.000-07:00

im GROUNDED!!!

im grounded lor wth.
for stupid reasons.
i went to my fren house then haven reach home then
my father wanted to bring us to eat claypot rice(which i don like)
then i haven reach home and he was like mad lor. keep shouting and scolding
he also go and blame my mom lor i tink he is the mad wan.
haix anyway its a long story.. tats onli part of it.
he went crazy then say i cannot go out le.. sian lor.
i also need to write down wad time i will be back home wad time i will leave all tat lor.
so lame lah.
assholes.
anyway today had training..
quite ok bahs not so tough although for the last 2 hours we were like playing match.. haha..
tomoro playing match with bedok north..very nervous cause we will be playing with the b girls than they very strong.
anyway tmr mus try my best!!
haha.

but i may be playing with their c girls.. i not sure but i hope not lahs..

wah i wan to slp but cant.
my mood these days at home..
haix.
i don noe i jus want the time at home to go faster.

forget it......

2007-03-12T09:17:00.000-07:00

went bugis on saturday with dear.(petrina) haha and my 2 nu- er

amanda and wen fen!!

shop a lot there but didn buy anything. oh ya! i did buy a long heart necklass but i not happy with it leh

i wanna buy a longer chain!!

anyway. i had fun. we watched the haunted school and its so scary cann.

i suck at watching horror movie.

sure will hide wan. but it was quite funny as i tried to scare pet then i also got scared. aiya jus very funny luhh lolss.

ohya. amanda and wen fen kept TAKING PHOTOS LIKE SIAO!!

lols

my hair was ok tat day.. thankfully . haha.

we took neoprints, ate at swensons and shopped before watching movie.

but the worst thing is i ate a lot of ice cream for the past few days. lucky today never eat.

saturday eat swenson

sunday eat ben and jerry

sure grow fat luh

ohya tomoro also maybe going to eat ben and jerrys again. then in the afternoon if i got go meet joey they all maybe they wan go eat haigen dazz!

die liao la. sure bankrupt and will grow fat luh.

haha. anyway here are the pictures.

me and amanda<33...

ahh wth. don noe y cannot upload all the photos. shit mann

wah today had training... quite tiring. the sun is scorching hot and it burnt us like siao. now our tan all damn ugly luhh.
can die.
we needed to run to one end of the court jump up to touch the ban then hua bu back all the way. 10 sets!!
wth lor.
then we did another hua bu thingy which was even worse!!
we went for break, wen we came back we were seperated into forward and center then we did different stuff.
shot free throws
did some stuffs then played match.
the match is the most tiring lor.
very stress sia.
i scared i cannot play well then mr wong scold me.
lucky never.
but he scold mei geok and lena until they cry lor.
i feel so sorry for them lah,
i tried to comfort them =))
very tiring sia. we need to stay very close to our attacker then it is so tiring!
then, one of my teammate made a mistake and he made everyone run si-zhe.
siao lor.
make us so tired. we just finished running then he made those hu were playing jus now continue. wth.
i was playing then had to continue. tired sia.
there was once i never score my fast break. so sadd lah!
bloody hell.
after my quater finish another group play then mr wong made me a referee!
siao lor.
i don noe how to be lah. stress sia. i don noe whether i got blow properly or not sia.
scary man.
the weird thing is tat after training i felt like running 2.4 but changed my mind in the end haha.
so i am going to run three rounds around skool with wen fen =))
must train my stamina!
mus keep tis motivation so i can improve and be good enough for team!!
yeah!
haha
i suddenly so motivated and determined mans.
sian.
tomoro wen fen come my house at 7 30!
siao lor. then i need to wake up early. haix.
she coming my house sleep a while, then we go downstairs eat roti prata after tat we go run around skool. good rite. haha.
but after tat we need to decorate the classroom. siannnnn!
mus find paint and markers lols.
ah
better go slp now if not wen fen come then i still sleeping.haha. now alr 12.52 sia.
goodnite!
i shall try to find all the other photos i took with the 3 chio bus tat day.

=))

2007-03-08T07:53:00.000-08:00

hahas.
today exam sure fail agian..
don noe y i laugh but nvm.
tomoro i also never study for it.
sure get scolded.
i tink im mad..
my new year resolutions all.. haix..
i sure won do it lor.
but still must try if not next year go normal.
aiya..
DIE READY LAH !!
somemore i still don wan study.. i ike scolding myself sia.
today last day of exam den also got training.
siao lah.
i scared mr wong will scold me i scared my stamina drop i scared i tomoro off form and i scared i don noe how to do the exam tomoro.
i scared of a lot of things sia.
lols

2007-03-07T02:02:00.000-08:00

common test!!
can die!
english history maths mother tongue
= CONFIRM FAIL!
up coming ones esp. science sure fail lah.
im dying
i really don noe how to do!
sian
haix.
tonight try to study lors.

=((

2007-03-03T22:00:00.000-08:00

haiz.. mugging for ct tomoro..

actually not really lah
i never study lor
don feel like
sure die wan.
today last day to study but i play com
lol
i tink i will study a bit bahhs
ii hope lol

i don wan to waste it on u..
not really waste but y did i agree on the first place!!!
now it would be damn funny luh if we meet again.
haix.
don force me lah.
i don wan to//
wish i could take back my answer.
i would really treat it as though it had never happened...

my stupid bro wwent to my blog again
bloody hell
i better not reveal anything
lol
i damn angry with him luhh
invade my privacy
asshole.

2007-03-02T06:13:00.000-08:00

hie!
so long never blog cause busy watching hana kimi!!
ah!
im mad bout tat show lah
they all so cute!
wu zun also damn shuai lah
crazy bout him
haha
i do anything also thinking bout that show
=))

its so addictive
but y onli got 15 ep!!
very little lor
so sadd
i cant bear to watch all the ep lor
i sure going to watch again
!
very nice lah!

i answered someone tat i really did not want to say.. y did i agree.
i don wan to but u keep forcing me.
say i don*********
wtf
wad will happen if **********
sure very weird lah
but i really don hav any ******** for *.

mus be confusing huh.
nvm.

2007-02-24T07:00:00.000-08:00

haix.. had a question today but i said no..
i really didn noe wad to say lor
but
haix..
the choice is made. theres no turning back.
will i regret it? i guess so.
but as i said..
no use being sadd over it anymore
thw question was asked time and time again for about 5 times?
accumilated from last time i guess it was quite a lot..
no wonder..
haix..
will stop tokin bout it cause i am confused
and unsure..

tomoro got prayer party gonna be busy
hope yann ting can come as monday got skool then maybe her parents won allow
....

feeling down..

2007-02-22T06:32:00.000-08:00

i came home quite early today sia..
school ended at 1030 then i went bubble tea wif pikachu monica serene and steph.
but the bubble tea wasn open lor wth. so we went to 7 eleven and then buy cup noodles. wen we went back to void deck then the shop just open! wad the hell rite!
we met joey they all then we planned to walk to tm
b8ut we walk walk walk then changed their mind so they took bus then i walked there myself lor.. i walk half way than pikachu they all behind me they say they veri good wan so they pei me..
we walk for a while then went to bubble tea shop and steph went there to eat her lunch.
we continue then decided to take bus cause joey they all there alr
we walked then serene suddenly fall down sia
scare me lor
i tot wad happen
her leg went in the drain but it was not tat serious bleed a bit then got blue black
lucky i got plaster.
hhahas
my tissue no more cause steph needed it.
wth lor
i once in a lifetime will bring tissue lor. must find another packet to bring now haha
we went tm eat hagen dazz walk around went tampines sec find jowilly fren then went home lame rite
i play com then fell asleep from 7 plus to 8 plus than i go eat dinner after tat i tok to fren then play com now lor=)
haha
my sis buying thing for me so muzbe awake.
=))

2007-02-21T07:08:00.000-08:00

wtf!!!
my bro wan to read my blog !!!
no fucking privacy in this house lor!
every time he go look at my sms
then see something he will threathen me with it.
ah! cant take him lah..

gonna break down soon. i really cant take it much longer.
my sister quarrel with my parents and now.. haix don noe how to say lahs..
stress!!
because of school,basketball and home is really accumilating and its reaching mthe top alr!!
help me..

2007-02-21T06:48:00.000-08:00

haix..
did badly at training as usual..
don feel happie.
always improve than deprove.
i tink i won get into team le...
really dying..
not sure if i can take it cause i feel like giving up..

don feel like toking much today..

2007-02-16T08:16:00.000-08:00

shitt man..
lost my wallet today..
sadd lahs..
very long never blog sia..
sorry
=))
hehehs.

i cut my hair!!
ah!
its short lor..
but much thinner..hahas.
if its long and thin it would be better.
hhahhas.
hope it grows fast
then go thin it again
hahas..
feels so light..

haix..
todae actually very happie de lor but lose my wallet..
!

wtf.

2007-02-05T06:10:00.000-08:00

haix..
tudae damn tired..
went to anglican there for stamina training..
we had to run three BIG BIG rounds for 20 mins and the thing is.. we went the wrong way the first time and we had to run extra cann!!
wtf..
after running the three rounds, there were slpoes all this lahs. then its like damn tiring..
we had to sprint up the hill 5 times leh!!
and i injured my leg lor!
damn pain sia..
but i cant pang seh my team..
must suffer with them!
so i continued..
haix..
it was damn tiring..
everyone almost died..

today the b boys lost and they are out alr..
so sadd lor..
wth..
they cried lor..
it was just damn sadd lah..
some of them last yr alr lor..
then this yr is quite strong wan lehs..
but they went out so early..
haix..
its ok..
cheer ups yeah..
u did well..
=))

but i was also like damn sadd..
a lot of people cried lah.. esp jian liang..
he never went to national lor..
haix..
ah!!
its just sadd lah!!

don wanna tok bout it anymore.
now must chiong my english summary le..
buh byes..
tomoro maybe go out with wen fen baby..
hahas.. yays

=))

2007-02-04T07:20:00.000-08:00

hahas..

im gonna slp soon..

tomoro sure die..

i never do any of my hw..

somemore tomoro stamina training at anglicann..

hope the b boys win the match tomoro.. jia you

=))

ahh

i shall be dead tomoro

see ya..

ouhh ya

muz see my new daughter..

i love her lOLs

she gonna protect mme , dear and my other nu-er..

hahas. =))

loves u amanda..

yupps this is my pretty nu-er.. and her daddy.. LOLs

harts u.. my whole family yupps..

=))

2007-02-03T22:40:00.000-08:00

YESTERDAYS PICS!!
twist! i was eating my ban mian then wei ting suddenly take photo lOLs
gay lah megan..=)) hand with brown jacket is mine!! LOLs
this is the pic i was toking bout then the woman scold us.. we advertise for levis still scold us.. haix..
papa and his relative baby

FAMILY!! loves.. papa. da ge. er ge.da jie. me. xiao mei=)
HARTS THEM LAHS=))

oh my... today i was like late for tuition.. its at loyang valley somemore..

tuition start at 9 30 and i woke up at 9 27!!

i was like wtf!!!

me and my bro tuition together and luckily the teacher is used to it.. aiya i don noe how to explain him LOLs..

very confusing wan

the worse thing is tat i didn do anything during tuition cann...

he bought for me a assesment book which was a present from him to me and i did like maybe 5 or 4 questiopns for bout 3 hours and tuition was over wth rite..

i slacked and ate and played with my bro then we talked to my tuition teacher to kill time:))

tats wad i always do luhh.

but tudae damn pathetic lor..

waited for my father to pick us up then we played with this golliwog thingy and cann make it into a ball so me and my bro went to opp. sides of the swimming pool and we would throw it to one end to another..

LOLs

then i accidentally use too little strength and itt was like stuck in themiddle and we couldn take it...

so.. i used my slipper to make waves so it would float to the other side and i was making progress then the security guard scold me... like wa lau lor..

but no choice so i continued ..

then one of the uncles there scold me;.. he was lke.. girl don wash yr slipper in the pool then i nothing to say lor..

haix.. finally we managed to get tat thingy out =)) the worse thing was wen i went back to the table he asked me bout my sis cause she las time tuition here also then i say yes lah.

wth lor..

so we decided not to play at the swimming pool and we played in the clubhouse house there

we played it like base ball and we would throw to each other and catch it and i accidentally threw it in the bushes there we find for a long time then finally, with my sharp eyes i found it!!

YAY!

but i sway lor..; always lose it.. hahas

then my father came and fetched us home!! had lunch then after tat cause my maid went on off day i had to help my mum clean the table and wash the dishes lor.. wad the hell..

she say girls muz learn how to do housework.. crap lah..

but nvm.. mus help her mahs.. she cook lunch for us so we help her wah lahl..

make sense rite..

but after a while she took over and she just ask me to wipe the things dry and clean the table

heng ah..

LOLs

so after washing i am bloging now!

LOLs

nowadays my posts all damn long lahhs.. =))

hahas.

a lot of things to write.. sian lor..

i am like damn tired got a lot of hw ut really don feel like doing it,. no mood then i also don noe how to do it...

haixx...

later i going carefore to buy groceries and yay i can buy wad i wan again!

hmm let me think.. i was to buy sweets to prevent me from slping in class, i wan to buy jolly shandy.. and a lot more lahs.. wat i want i jus put in the trolley ! yay!

LOLs

mad woman...

ok so.. would be leaving soon and maybe tonight blog again but no promises

=))

2007-02-03T09:25:00.000-08:00

ah!
don noe y suddenly cannot use old blogger alr.. sian.. i prefer the old blogger..

today was fun lahs!!!!!
mr tan fetches us to orchard to watch the concert but we went to polish his car
but after tat he came backk to meet me yann ting and elouis.. later megan and wei ting came too=)
it was like damn funny luh..
mr tan is like our father lor and juz like tat we created a family! LOLs
so in our family, there is
MR TAN= PAPA(FATHER)=))
WEI TING=DA-GE(BIG BRO)=))
MEGAN=ER-GE(SECOND BRO)=))
YANN TING=DA JIE(OLDEST SIS TO ME AND ELOU)=))
ME! SARAH=ER-JIE(SECOND SISTO ELOUIS)=))'
ELOUIS=XIAO MEI!!(YOUNGEST SIS)LOLS=))

LOVES U ALL!!!

TODAY WAS A FUN DAY.. THX YA..
muackks.. =))
OK WAD REALLY HAPPENED..
the concert was like some church thing but its like a dance performance(im a buddist)
but we missed the first part which was really the dancing thingy..
afer tat was the talk bout jesus? and all
me and elouis went along with it but yann ting was like restricted?
aiya shes weird.. LOLs
sorry da jie.. i was jus jk=))
ok so. wen it finished as i said earlier on we went to meet megan and wei ting then we waited for mr tan.. mr tan came and he was like broke lahs lols. so we went to A food centre or sumthing..
erm i ate ban mian LOLs. it was quite nice bahs..
after tat we went shopping cause mr tan elouis we all wanted to buy sumthing.
then we met 'PAPA' the relative and their baby was like so cute lahs!
next time then i post the pics.. it was like damn nice luhs..
after tat
we went off to this fasion first and we were like crazy there lor..
i could tell tat wei ting and megan was like damn bored and they were dying cause theres nothing for them tat wan all girly stuff..
suddenly me xiao mei and da jie decided to do sumthing crazy!
we three would choose a dress each and try it on! siao rite!
and so we chose and we changed megan and wei ting keep asking us to come out and yann ting was like don wan lah!
then mr tan called and yann ting asked me to go to her.. i ran across but wei ting and megan spotted me LOLs so in the end they saw us in dress...
wa lau.. elouis and yann ting looked damn funny luh cause their too short.. no offence..
im taller than them so i quite ok but also will look quite weird LoLs...
it was like crazy cann..
ouhhyah!!
i forgot befre going there we went to og and there was those showcase thing where people put theirmodels rite, me wei ting they all went to stand there and megan went out to take picture of us.. LOLs
siao lor.. then the sales person scolded us not really scolded lah but she say 'can u all pls don play there' then we like bo wei gong and we hurried off .. we saw mr tan leaving tat place so we went off also .. haha.. it was damn funny.. post pics next time.. we told mr tan and he was like.. lucky i wasn near u all cause he was looking for those button shirt thing..
hahas..
ok.. after this fashion.. i didn wear my jacket anymore and megan and wei ting looked at my arms and said wa lau u damn muscular luh.. ANd i was like LOLs lor..
megan had to go home cause it was like 8 plus alr.
she told me to take care of yann ting and elouis cause
i am like the strongest.. she also said, u cant expect yann ting to punch tat person rite.. it would be like ant bite and i laughed loudly lor.. haha.. -.-
then megan and wei ting left..
now we won have any worry of going to some girly store=))
we decided to eat ice cream and we were at the heeren which we intended to shpo at but got no mac so we walked to takashimaya buy ice cream walked around and ohya xiao mei bought a skirt in this fashion..xiao mei..u r finally gonna wear skirt.. ok.. after eating ice cream we went to lucky plaza and i spoted a slipper cause elouis needed to buy 1..
ah my eye so sharp LOLs. it was quite nice lor.. then she bought it also..
=))
she was like a cant believe i spent 30 plus dollars just like tat hhahhas.. but she didn buy straight away.. i told her to look around first but we saw a giant mac and we went in and ordered one mcnugget student meal for us to share:))
quite late le and we wanted to go home so we couldn find any nice slipper so we went back and we bought it..
went to mrt station, top up card and mrt-ed to raffles place or wad i don noe lah.. i jus follow yann ting they all.. we changed mrt then we realised we took the wrong train!!
it was going to boon lay!
lucky we discovered it fast or wen we reaches boon lay then we find out we sure die wan lor.. reached tampines. took 28 and went home.. we three took a lot of pictures to make wei ting jealous.. we were damn lame lor.. in the bus and mrt also we take.. everyone looked at us but we didn care LOLs...
so reached home bout 10 plus..
watched tv, talked to ...'
then my movie ended nothing to do.. watches a bit of indian show LOLs..
last time i always watch wan lor.. its quite nice..
but after tat i went to play com!
nothing to do so blog lor!
oh my!!
i just realised tat i blog for an hour!!
its 2 am on the dot now!
tmr sure cannot wake up somemore got maths tuition and i left a lot of homework to do.. ah!!
stress again!!
i better go slp now...

uh byes!!!

had fun wif u guys today..
next time i also wan go schoold help juniors train.. by doing so, da jie they all get 3 hours CIP points lor!!
not fair!!
so next time mus go =)) LOLs

thx da jie da ge er ge xiao meii for tudae
ohya PAPA too LOLs
loves!!

=))

2007-02-02T05:56:00.000-08:00

am i jealous?

i sometimes just wish i can die striaght away..
i just dont belong..
i very fast jiu bu shuang le lor. ohmygosh..
sorry if i offended u. i jus don noe wad to do..
i don noe how to type it out but rite now i jus feel really confused..
i need someone to help me but i guess i can never have the type of person i want.
i juggling between so many matters and i jus cant handle it..i do tink i can say tis out and talk to my frens so i jus have to tink it out myself or just keep it to myself and leave myself crying...
i jus do some thing wrong and i get................ if it were someone else nothing will happen u wld jus do it jokingly..tis has part of wads bothering me but there is like just so many things and i am trying to keep my self busy so i won have to keep reminding myself of this. my joy is just something tat i am using to protect me from being hurt.. it is also just to help me control my cries and sadness.. i seem to get even worse and closer to the problem but i just cant pull myself from it..
my feelings just cant help it.. i noe it is not a good idea and he is probably not a good choice but there are other stuff bothering me a lot not because of... but also loads more...
i don noe wad to do...
this world is sad to me..
u had better stop it..

the problem with my brother is getting worse and i cant stand it...
my pride is hurt and its depleting... i will soon be a person hu is not confident and egoless.
there willl be no pride in me if this contines.. i also cant stop it and no one can.. i cant bear to see.... hurt too.

so many kinds of problems including bout my studies..
i wan to study but i just cant
i ive up really easily and although i am trying very hard, it seems as though i am really not.. i noe i don make sense but i jus don noe wad to say to u all.. and how to say it...
ok enough of this..

tomoro going to a dance performance.. hip hop de..
yeah!
i love hip hop.. if i am not in basketball i would go join it lor.. sian..
not onli hip hop but other dances also..
aiya
i don noe wad i am and wad i like anymore..
very long never play the piano already lor
later i need to quit it how?
i wan to quit cause i don wanna change teacher but i learn piano for so many yrs already..
haix. i don noe lahs. leave it to my parents.
i may be a jack of everything but a master of none...
i don have skill for basketball and talent too i guess...
so i am trying my best to get in team or else i don noe wad i will say to my parents if i do not get in.. i would really break down and cry lahs..i tried really really hard lor..
i may give up if i don get to team.. all i can do is hope.

i also tink i have no talent for piano ... i don noe lah..
i shldn do anything lah..
i shldn go for my interest as i may have no talent for anything at all.. so i am now just playing by the game..
i really feel damn depressed after writing this lahs..
haix..
i shall end my miseries here for now..
i bet that there will be more soon..
wen will they ever stop.......

=((

2007-01-26T20:12:00.000-08:00

ah!
yesterday forrgot to off jie jie laptop and i play until i went to slp.. hope she won scold me sias.
today maybe going wei ting house to study but son noe if can lor..
even if we go there also don noe is we will study lahs..
lols..

yay!
my AH ma make for us popiah to eat for lunch..
its like damn nice de lor..
shes a damn good cook lahs..
wen she make thing to eat i sure happie de=))

i hope i can go wei ting house bahs..

=))

2007-01-26T07:37:00.000-08:00

so long never blog again lols..
heng lor
i sec two then training is not stamina de is tactic de
so will quite slack..
=))
heng lars
happie!

ive gone mad..
i may be happy one moment then later i willl either zi bi or like be very bu shuang..
i don noe y lor
aiya
fuck it lahs...

i hope i can go into team lor...
really nervous..
i in a very scary position can,...
i maybe cannot go team..
if i cant i will be like so damn bloody sad lah..
yann ting is sure go inside wan lor then she always say she wont..
she 1 of the key players lor to mr wong.. sure wan..
she doesn noe wad she has and so many people would like to take her position..
estee: wah.. how can yann ting cope sia..
studies so good how she balance wif basketball lor
me: tats y lah.. she damngood lahs..i jealous... LOLs

if im like u i would be like damn ahppy..
u don noe wad uve got..

i feel sad.. for some reasons... im confused wif a lot of things and i cant make up my mind..
a lot to choose and decide and im like stressed?
pimple break out le.. al because of tat.. it was recovering and now....

haix..

tis is my life bahs
but i still don really wan to accept it..

mrs wee told leonard say maybe want to change class comitee..
i tink she wan change me but i do a lot of things already lor..
i decide and start the meetings wan lor..
like wad the hell..
i also always am the one hu make the class keep quiet and line up properly all tat lor.. wtf
she doesn noe anything bout it can
bloody hell=))

g2g le
buh byes
im still sadd and confused..

=((

2007-01-16T05:44:00.000-08:00

Today had training
first in skool than raining
so we go simei the indoor court play
=))

i have been very tired and really no energy nowadays
so i may just keep quiet
so tat does not mean im emo lahs
chan yann ting..
i am not emo k
=P

** today while talking on the phone say he transferring skool next monday
and i was like shocked can
but i won be sad bahs
next yr he coming back lers
but still can tok to him on the phone everynite
so nvm lor
i don noe wad i am feeling now
but im not sad
i won be emo bout it
theres nothing going on between us anyway
LOLs
so
moral of the story

I WON"T BE SAD
i am also unsure bout wad i am
feeing rite now
so don tink im sad
yann ting...
I AM A STRONG GAL
LOLs...

=))

2007-01-15T06:11:00.000-08:00

hahas!!!
so long never blog!!!
tat day went bugis and saw a shirt so nice
LOLs
really don noe wad to say sia

=))

2007-01-05T07:15:00.000-08:00

~~i don noe y abut im scared my feelings will come back~~
~~it really hasn left~~
~~but im not even sure if u have anyone new or wad~~
~~i need a guy to help me forget~~
~~but its so hard to find someone of good character~~
~~i don noe y but i kinda miss u...~~
~~wen i see u with someone i don noe y i feel weird~~
~~he doesn really have a good character and he isn guai lah~~
~~but i don noe wad i like bout him~~
~~troubled.....~~
~~really feel like going to him but its not really a good idea.. haix...~~

2007-01-05T06:52:00.000-08:00

hahas..
todae after skool we went to bbt shop slack again
then rebecca went my house to wait for me to bath finish
cause after tat we going to temesek poly for don noe wad sports syn something lah
don noe how to spell
=))

bout 8.50 like tat we left cause very boring
i was like slping lors

hahas

today like really no mood

so like i very bu shuang

but i don noe lahs

we went from temesek poly then go to tm
eat kfc:))
i needed to go home so me yann ting wei ting and elouis went home
wa lau i listen to my mp4 then i was like quite high bahs
cause wei ting was like listening with me and we both love to dance and at the
interchange we both dancing canns so damn pai sehs
in the bus was like worse
we were singing damn loud and dancing like no bodys business lor
really damn embarressing and elouis and yann ting was also damn pai seh they pretend not to noe us
we were singing and the bus is so damn quiet and everyone could like hear us lor
we were super super high
don noe y also=))
so fun sia
tomoro i going skool then also going to bring and me and wei ting is gonna go high!!

hahas cant wait

=))

2007-01-04T04:24:00.000-08:00

today had training quite ok lahs not tough..
but i was like damn pek chek la
i today cannot do all the ball drills lor then i was like really pek chek.

after training we went to bubble tea shop tu slack skack until 7 50 like tat jiu go home lers
nothing interesting happen today lor onli tat got one person makes me angry

oh ya
do u noe i vice chairperson
like omg lor
but i want to try to continue the post so i can learn to be more responsible

=))

2007-01-03T04:40:00.000-08:00

oh ya
i going tu put password to my blog so my bro won be able to read it and it is ....
my privacy kkx

=))

2007-01-03T04:21:00.000-08:00

got abused like siao yesterday..
i fought wif my brother cause he wanted to look at my blog..
he is an ass.
this is like my privacy lor.
i don have any fucking privacy in this damn house lah
my bro always look at my sms then he will threathen to tell my mum..
i cant stand it lor
its like he has no bloody respect for me..
so now i am not gonna care bout him.
he was like punching he like siao lor..
then i called my sis and she asked me to change the password to the com
she go call him so he went out to the living room than i went inside and changed it
wen he realised it, he came into the room and started pucnching me even more and harder..
he go throw the com chair at me lor wth..

today after school went to eat pasta mania wif frens then go popular buy book than me and yt go back school study.. after tat it was raining and bout 7 plus we went home..
i am llike drenched lahs....

today my first day of school but its not so bad..
my teachers are all quite ok
lucky i not in rebeccas class.
her teacher is very strict sias..

=))

2007-01-02T01:29:00.000-08:00

hihi..
long time never blog agian cause of my stupid bro
today after training i went tm wif yt to buy pens and stuff
ahh
excited lahs
school starts tomoro
but i not really in the mood for school sias,
today we met like a lot of people
we met jane,amanda,clara,sian pei,joreen,viven, pris,qiu ru ,qiu fang, wei ting ,arlene,
we also saw other peoiple but too much too say lahs.
damn heavy lor my stuff i walk until leg pain hand pain.
today training quite slack sia
but halfway i couldn breathe like wad the hell lor
mr wong keep saying i pregnant...
i gained confidence today
i dare to penetrate more
goodie
so mus work harder now!
jia you!
LOls
self motivation
=))

2006-12-29T08:37:00.000-08:00

=))
yesterday watched death note 2 with yann ting qiu ru qiu fang pat andrea and rebecca.
felt damn pek chek canns..
i don noe how to say larhs but wtf....

~~?jus so~~ ~~fucking irritating when they are like talking bout u in front of u or behindyr back~~

~~its like backstabbing lahs wonder wads so great bout her..~~

~~ur all always around her... she doesn think before she fucking says anything.she is so hurting lor.really damn sick of i t..~~

~~i will wear wad i want to wear and don comment.cause yr not fit to.~~

~~so fuck off.i would rather go with joey they all.~~

haha..watched night at the museum today..

watched it with stephanie and my bro tats y we watch tat...

saw wei ting at the popcorn there

she went to watch curse of the golden flower.haix..

wanted to watch tat show lor it looked so interesting.

pkk went to watch death note today but didn get to see her lols.

she watches same time as lena and mei geok

a lot of my frens go watch movie today sia.

now my dear captain has asked me to sleep=))

but i really not sleepy sia

and my brother is like watching x men 3 on vcd now

very sad sia

i almost feel like crying

i very emo de.

if i watch sad show sure will cry de haha

wa now very late le

1.04am

wa lau i blog until so long lols

sian.. i not everyday can use the computer cause my bro wan to use

its so fucking irritating sia

he is so damn rude to me lahs

everything i mus listen to him...

ahhh

he is such an asshole

i really feel so humiliated

wen he does it(order me around)

i feel damn angry i feel like juz hurting him but i cant or he will get very hurt.

so wen he hits me i most probably wont hit him back but really lor i won be able to control it one day....

goodnights =)))

2006-12-23T07:37:00.000-08:00

jus UPDATED BLOG
yeah baby lols
this is wad is outside of me..
the me inside is still hiding and unsure...
christmas eve tomoro..
excited..
going uncle house
cannot celebrate with frens
but its ok
im with my family
i don have much freedom than other people
and im always fightin and arguing with my mum juz cause she doesn always let me go out with my frens..
i really envy other people..

2006-12-23T05:55:00.000-08:00

i went out wif parents todae..
sian
my father don let me buy present..
i Don noe wad im doing with myself these daes..
i may juz not care bout anything anymore..
i feel like not caring.. cried again bout things...
i may just go through each dae not knowing wad to do..
im sorry if i juz don do anything wen im with u or wen i go out wif u all and im not hyper..
sometimes i feel like dying so everything will be gone..
my troubles may not be that serious but its the amount of it tt makes me like tt..
now my hobby: crying??
i juz want to be normal or even perfect so i won make mistakes.
hope i won make my frens angry or anyhtthing.
i might juz explode one dae..
i juz keep storing all my anger in my heart i really feel damn angry sad..
im tired of people toking bout me
.its my life so juz stay out of it

2006-12-20T03:14:00.000-08:00

hies..
long time never blog.. i started cause yann ting asked me too LOLs.
shes a great friend.
yann ting...
we are all very worried bout u.
me and megan.
we were saying that u are always keeping things to yrself and u have a lot of worries pls take care
try to tell us more of yr troubles so we can help u.
don keep everything to yrself.
although i told u tat i noe it is diff for me to tell my troubles too.
but do try k..
lurves u
takecare
buuh byes